/annnnngst
I'm not sure what's going on, but all I can say is that there's something very wrong with me.
For one thing, my sleep pattern has been all over the place pretty much this entire month. And despite some of the things I've tried to do to switch back over to a normal schedule, it hasn't been working. It was fine enough before since usually I'd go to bed by at least 2am, 3 tops(I needed to get better at getting up earlier though). But now the earliest has usually been around 7. Days rarely even feel like days anymore because by the time I get up the sun had already gone down and it's constantly pitch black outside, besides a brief time of seeing sun rise and towards the end of sun set :|
It's really irritating, because most of the things I should be doing should be done in the daytime, or at least when I prefer to anyway. Otherwise I just go "Lolnope, too dark, I'll do it later"... As if the shitty cold weather didn't help much either >>.
It's just now.... bluuugh. I feel like I'm wasting my life anyway doing nothing. Which I am really. I got absolutely nothing done like I wanted to this year (besides like.. Fanime >>), still can't find a job so I won't feel so financially stressed, and all I ever seem to hear in my family is doom and gloom since no one has money (and rl friends who aren't helping the situation). And we might loose the house in the next year because our mom is a fucking dumbass, but that's a different rant I really don't feel like going into right now >>
It's times like this that I'm sometimes glad all of humanity might be wiped out in two years, I wouldn't need to deal with this shit anymore.
For one thing, my sleep pattern has been all over the place pretty much this entire month. And despite some of the things I've tried to do to switch back over to a normal schedule, it hasn't been working. It was fine enough before since usually I'd go to bed by at least 2am, 3 tops(I needed to get better at getting up earlier though). But now the earliest has usually been around 7. Days rarely even feel like days anymore because by the time I get up the sun had already gone down and it's constantly pitch black outside, besides a brief time of seeing sun rise and towards the end of sun set :|
It's really irritating, because most of the things I should be doing should be done in the daytime, or at least when I prefer to anyway. Otherwise I just go "Lolnope, too dark, I'll do it later"... As if the shitty cold weather didn't help much either >>.
It's just now.... bluuugh. I feel like I'm wasting my life anyway doing nothing. Which I am really. I got absolutely nothing done like I wanted to this year (besides like.. Fanime >>), still can't find a job so I won't feel so financially stressed, and all I ever seem to hear in my family is doom and gloom since no one has money (and rl friends who aren't helping the situation). And we might loose the house in the next year because our mom is a fucking dumbass, but that's a different rant I really don't feel like going into right now >>
It's times like this that I'm sometimes glad all of humanity might be wiped out in two years, I wouldn't need to deal with this shit anymore.