why today sux
Okay, back to the original point: today sux. I thought things with Nick and I were going really well, if only as friends. But then Amber told me a few things that made me see things in a new light. Yes, they are dating (or something) even though Nick has said "there's no way I could be attracted to her, you've seen her" and "i couldn't even ever kiss her, i simply don't see her that way". Yet tonight they are on the way to DC for the March for Women's Lives, and are spending the night with her parents, who live in the area. She has less than two weeks left here til she's done with school for the year, then she's going back to DC. Trust me, it couldn't be soon enough. Truthfully, the Ball last night was a bit boring, but I was glad I went. Nick even had the nerve to wear the silver band that matches mine. (his "wedding ring")I even introduced him to my buddy Sabrina as my partner. I asked him and he said "fine with me, i have NO problem with that" even though we're broken up. He asked to hold my hand on the way home in the car. Held hands with me, or kept his arm on me the whole time we were out last night, kept telling me that he loves me. I thought things were great, til Amber told me otherwise today. A few days ago Nick told me I shouldn't say I hate him cuz "hate" is a very strong word. Okay, what's the next thing under that? Cuz I need a word to describe how I feel about him right now.........