This life is getting hard on me
I know people freak whenever I complain online or talk about how my life is really hard and tragic and whatever but I never know exactly where else to vent except online. please don't worry everything will manage itself out and I'm sure things will get better. at least I'm sure when I feel better than I feel right now
I've a friend who lives way way way out of town and I haven't seen her in forever. I have friends that are right nearby that I can't seem to together with. that's kind a hard on me because I love them all so much and I know they're there for me even when I can't be there for them.
Mostly I go back and forth because of work being really not fun and way too much. While other people would be so kind I just don't think I'm cutting it there and I figure at the end of the year I won't be teaching there anymore.
so where does that leave me? There's a lot of stuff I'm good at but there's not a lot that I'm technically qualified for. my biggest fear is that I'm going to lose my house and that makes me sick. And the anxiety can sometimes I totally freeze and have no idea what to do next. I don't want this job and I don't know what I'm going to do if I lose it.
The worst thing is I haven't been writing much lately and with this fantastic new phone that I love like crazy and people make fun of I can actually recite what I want to write. So I'm giving that a shot to see if it makes any difference. Again to everybody who does pay attention to this please don't worry about me. everything will work itself out and I love you guys who support me as much as you can... as much as you do please don't ever stop.
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