George Leyva's Afterhour Rambling
So I just got back from FIU after a day at the pool at dorms and watching 300 later on, and a now feel like rambling for a bit. I rarely do this kind of stuff, so bear with me.
Things are changing at the university that I'm in...somewhat. I was part of the Student Programming Council for most of the previous college year, and I enjoyed it to the fullest. Now things are different. I had to fill out an application to become a member of that club, and I got interviewed. Unfortunately I didn't get in. It turns out that they're looking for people with more experience. I've heard that many people that I know from SPC are no longer in the club because of the new changes and such. However, this is not going to bring me down at all. I'm now exploring other options as to what to do, specifically joining a club that pertains to one of my majors or both.
I still haven't gotten my work-study aid yet. If I don't end up getting it, I'm doing the same thing as mentioned above.
One of my worst fears was confirmed tonight. I've been liking this girl ever since January, and then came April. That's when I found out that she was going out with one of her bandmates from her band. I found out little by little about this through signs. Then came tonight. The band happened to be playing at GC. I didn't check them out playing because of the 300 showing. After I finished watching 300, I was walking around when I saw her kiss that same guy passionately. I had a water bottle in my hand, and I could feel it squeezing it with anger. I almost immediately left GC, now feeling like crap at the end of a good day, where I met new people and caught up with familiar ones. It aches me a lot when I think about it. I wonder what will definitely become of me ten years from now. She could have made a great girlfriend, but now it seems highly unlikely. She and that guy love each other so much, it pisses me off. Then there's the German girl that I've known since high school. I still have feelings for her, though she has had a bad reputation. We've reconciled, but it's somewhat surreal. We live different lives, and you can say that she's out of my league. I'm now in college majoring in Computer Science and History. I now have a Driver's License. I've had two jobs. I'm generally wiser than I was a few years back. On the other hand, she's had some jobs and still has one; but she's not in college. I'm so concerned about her that I worry for her health. I don't want to lose her.
I wonder what God has in store for me. Am I destined to be single forever? If yes, then someone please shoot me, or else I'm going on a serial killing spree---JUST KIDDING! But you get my point. I find this we're-destined-to-be-this crap to be rubbish. We make our own destinies. Am I going to weep all day long because I still can't get a girlfriend after all these years, despite improving my personality and demeanor now and then? Not a chance in hell. I will keep on marching until I reach victory...and I hope to God that it's near.
Things are changing at the university that I'm in...somewhat. I was part of the Student Programming Council for most of the previous college year, and I enjoyed it to the fullest. Now things are different. I had to fill out an application to become a member of that club, and I got interviewed. Unfortunately I didn't get in. It turns out that they're looking for people with more experience. I've heard that many people that I know from SPC are no longer in the club because of the new changes and such. However, this is not going to bring me down at all. I'm now exploring other options as to what to do, specifically joining a club that pertains to one of my majors or both.
I still haven't gotten my work-study aid yet. If I don't end up getting it, I'm doing the same thing as mentioned above.
One of my worst fears was confirmed tonight. I've been liking this girl ever since January, and then came April. That's when I found out that she was going out with one of her bandmates from her band. I found out little by little about this through signs. Then came tonight. The band happened to be playing at GC. I didn't check them out playing because of the 300 showing. After I finished watching 300, I was walking around when I saw her kiss that same guy passionately. I had a water bottle in my hand, and I could feel it squeezing it with anger. I almost immediately left GC, now feeling like crap at the end of a good day, where I met new people and caught up with familiar ones. It aches me a lot when I think about it. I wonder what will definitely become of me ten years from now. She could have made a great girlfriend, but now it seems highly unlikely. She and that guy love each other so much, it pisses me off. Then there's the German girl that I've known since high school. I still have feelings for her, though she has had a bad reputation. We've reconciled, but it's somewhat surreal. We live different lives, and you can say that she's out of my league. I'm now in college majoring in Computer Science and History. I now have a Driver's License. I've had two jobs. I'm generally wiser than I was a few years back. On the other hand, she's had some jobs and still has one; but she's not in college. I'm so concerned about her that I worry for her health. I don't want to lose her.
I wonder what God has in store for me. Am I destined to be single forever? If yes, then someone please shoot me, or else I'm going on a serial killing spree---JUST KIDDING! But you get my point. I find this we're-destined-to-be-this crap to be rubbish. We make our own destinies. Am I going to weep all day long because I still can't get a girlfriend after all these years, despite improving my personality and demeanor now and then? Not a chance in hell. I will keep on marching until I reach victory...and I hope to God that it's near.