The Rebirth of George Leyva perhaps...and then some
As of late, I've gotten more interested in Biblical stuff. This all started when I went to Horeb Christian School during my middle school years. I learned about Jesus Christ and why he died on the cross, and then more stuff. It changed me mentally and spiritually, and the effects carried on to my high school years. I watched TBN for sermons, though I didn't read the Bible that much. Then, I got sick and tired of most of the evangelists on that channel because they were like the conservative and liberal bombthrowers that you see in the news and stuff everytime---Ann Coulter and Al Franken included. Also, they didn't seem to care about the other side of the story, such as the fact that there are people like Luis Posada Carriles who are as much of assholes as Fidel. I gradually started to go my way and be independent of everyone, because the fact of the matter is that Jesus Christ/God/Holy Spirit is the Only Perfect Teacher out there for everyone, because He knows about life and everything else, and how to get out of the mess that you're in. Then came The Da Vinci Code and The Supposed Lost Tomb of Jesus, both of which I think are just crap. I think this because I've gone over many articles about these things, and I've come to the conclusion that Jesus Christ has always been divine and DID rise from the dead, unlike Allah and Buddha. This has awoken in me a deep interest in anything Biblical---whether from the right or the left. Heck, I might start reading the Bible like I did long ago. Just look at the world around you. There are people saying that they're Jesus Christ---like that guy in Miami. Israel has been reborn---just like the Holy Book has said that it would happen, and many more prophecies have been fulfilled.
Everything has mostly been great for me. I've gotten great classes, good grades, great friendsihps, more friends, more girls to choose from as a girlfriend, and it keeps on getting better. I've gone out and hung with friends for three straight weekends already, and now make that four...and I thought that this year was going to suck ass big time...well, it hasn't so far. I'm close to getting my Driver's...and finally head out to clubs and hanging out with friends more and visiting them and going on dates with girls. I have a great job, which I've had for five months right now. IT's like a relationship.
In the midst of all of this, there's this one thought that keeps coming into my mind now and then...that of that German girl. It's been around four months since we ended our friendship in the tragic way possible. I'm sure that she's still hurting from the inside because she lost her significant other; it's something that you can't get over that easily. She won't forgive me for how I was towards him before he died; I was babbling on this goddamn diary about how better I was than him because I didn't take any drugs like he did, and so on. However, I didn't reach the point in which I wanted him to die. Yes, I wanted the relationship to end, but NOT in the way that it ended. I miss her friendship, thought I never got to hook up with her. I've never found out the real reason why she never wanted me as more than a friend. I was nice, but that never worked. I hear Disturbed's "Stricken," and it sometimes reminds me of her. I'm stricken and I can't let her go. I also hear System of a Down's "Roulette," and it's the same thing. I even almost cried listening to it, because it reminded me of her so much, and the crush that I had on her. Many of my friends will say to me to let her go already, that she's always been a slut, blah blah blah; but there was something special about her. She was a tragic soul to me, and I worry about her well-being. I worry that she might not live any longer or make it through this year. I want to see her one more time at least, and do something funny and joyful. She had a joyful personality and a joyful beauty...and she still has it, despite the shit that she's gone through. Melanie "Summer" "April" "Melody" Ramirez, wherever you are, please give me one more chance. I miss your presence...and friendsip. Please don't do something stupid.
...and I have more demons out there that want to rip me apart, like right now as I'm writing this...
Everything has mostly been great for me. I've gotten great classes, good grades, great friendsihps, more friends, more girls to choose from as a girlfriend, and it keeps on getting better. I've gone out and hung with friends for three straight weekends already, and now make that four...and I thought that this year was going to suck ass big time...well, it hasn't so far. I'm close to getting my Driver's...and finally head out to clubs and hanging out with friends more and visiting them and going on dates with girls. I have a great job, which I've had for five months right now. IT's like a relationship.
In the midst of all of this, there's this one thought that keeps coming into my mind now and then...that of that German girl. It's been around four months since we ended our friendship in the tragic way possible. I'm sure that she's still hurting from the inside because she lost her significant other; it's something that you can't get over that easily. She won't forgive me for how I was towards him before he died; I was babbling on this goddamn diary about how better I was than him because I didn't take any drugs like he did, and so on. However, I didn't reach the point in which I wanted him to die. Yes, I wanted the relationship to end, but NOT in the way that it ended. I miss her friendship, thought I never got to hook up with her. I've never found out the real reason why she never wanted me as more than a friend. I was nice, but that never worked. I hear Disturbed's "Stricken," and it sometimes reminds me of her. I'm stricken and I can't let her go. I also hear System of a Down's "Roulette," and it's the same thing. I even almost cried listening to it, because it reminded me of her so much, and the crush that I had on her. Many of my friends will say to me to let her go already, that she's always been a slut, blah blah blah; but there was something special about her. She was a tragic soul to me, and I worry about her well-being. I worry that she might not live any longer or make it through this year. I want to see her one more time at least, and do something funny and joyful. She had a joyful personality and a joyful beauty...and she still has it, despite the shit that she's gone through. Melanie "Summer" "April" "Melody" Ramirez, wherever you are, please give me one more chance. I miss your presence...and friendsip. Please don't do something stupid.
...and I have more demons out there that want to rip me apart, like right now as I'm writing this...