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My fanfic...
Title : Haunted
Scribbler : Mélie (angedemon78@wanadoo.fr)
Kind : Songfic, POV, Yaoi, some spoilers [episode 34 I think], vengeance of the scribbler
Pairing : Greed x Kimblee powaaaa!
Song : "Haunted", by Evanescence
Haunted
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
I should never come back, I suppose. I know it. I should never, never come back here, in this bar where I spoke to him so many times. Now I betrayed him, I should flee. Run away, away.
But I'm not a runaway. And I don't care for consequences. I came back. In spite of what happened, I came back.
And now I hear…
Still can't find what keeps me here
I don't even now why. I crossed the city. I saw the door. And now I'm here.
There was a lot of damage. It was already shabby, the alchemist's attack didn't help, but time made things worse.
The sofa where he was so often sitting on or laying on is not here anymore.
And even if I can hear his voice, no one’s here.
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
I think I hear him, I even think I see him… just him, not the others, just him.
Stupid Homonculus. To let himself get caught by a young boy. Pffff… and I, I thought he would be the one who’d last the longest.
I knew. I knew immediatly. Something deep in me told me it was over for Greed. And here it is. And I knew it was the boy who killed it. Because it couldn't be anyone else.
And I was right.
Stupid Homonculus. And I’m not at fault. I betrayed him, off course. But I didn't kill him.
I can still hear him speaking… about all these things he said to me, just to me. Things about him, about Homonculi, about sins… as a traitor, I could not have dreamt of anything better.
But that position never delighted me and it still doesn't.
The more time passes, the more I realize I won nothing. Nothing.
To be a State Alchemist… the Crimson Alchemist… if I wanted to kill, I could do it by Greed's side.
Maybe it is in my nature.
I hear him laughing now. Laughing at me.
Watching me
I'm sure of it, I'm sure of it! He is here. He’s seeing me. And he’s laughing.
Laugh, Greed, laugh!
Wanting me
Greed… THE Greed. Always wanting what he could not own.
And me…
He wanted me as soon as he saw me. And here we are.
I can feel you pull me down
He’s laughing at me, he’s laughing at me! Why? I don't know…
Greed was greedy, but he never reduced himself to get what he wanted. I never saw him implore, nor cry…
He could threaten. But he never did that with me.
It didn't bring me anything. Nothing good, nothing bad. Period.
So why are you laughing?
Fearing you
The pleasure I got out of killing, of hearing the explosion. That never impressed him or scared him. That should have rather amused him.
He should have suspected it, that fool.
I’d always hurt both the enemy and my comrades. He knew it. He knew my reputation. He should have suspected it.
Loving you
I wonder what hurt him the most. Was it really that I betrayed him?
Or was it to see Archer by my side? Did he believe I loved another man? Did he believe I’d lied since the beginning?
I lied, of course. But, strangely, not about that.
I won't let you pull me down
Yes, I know… strange, mad, whatever you want ! But you believed in me!
Who's the fool, here?
I'm still alive, ME! And you said so many things that I could use…
Now, I can be greedy, too! I can want glory! And I can own it! Yes, I can own it… I know how to kill the Homunculi !
Because you told me, too, you stupid !
Maybe the boy knows, too… but I can kill him, if I wish to. And hear his body explode…
I'm still alive. And I want to last long.
So why doesn’t this laugh stop?
Hunting you I can smell you - Alive
Your heart's pounding in my head
It's as if he was still here. Still alive. Still sitting by my side. Still his arm around my shoulders. Still talking, talking, talking… getting closer to me.
I see myself pretending I had not seen anything.
Greed, the Greed… you wanted everything. Freedom. Eternity. And me.
One, by freedom, I assume, this isn't bad.
Watching me
You believed you knew everything. You believed nothing ever escaped you. You believed you were invincible.
It's the proof you were wrong.
So stop laughing at me like that!
Wanting me
You saw some things, off course.
You saw me, that night. You were sleeping, or I thought so, on that sofa. I got closer to observe you. And suddenly you opened your eyes and you brought me to you.
I can feel you pull me down
That time, I didn't see you coming. But I repayed it well to you!
That consternated face you made, realizing… you were not proud anymore… you were not in control anymore.
I would have enjoyed seeing you die… just for being here.
But why, in spite of what I'm saying, are you still laughing?
Saving me
I, I helped you get away, helped you leave that place you’d been enclosed in for a hundred years!
Oh, how much the thought of finding yourself enclosed again chilled you, and even frightened you! At least this didn’t happen to you. Look at the bright side.
Raping me
We're both chargeless… you surprised me once, I surprised you once.
However, today, you're still haunting me. What's going on? You had my body and my love, I had your life. For me, and I'm an Alchemist, it's a very good example of equivalent exchange.
Watching me
You're still there, you're laughing, you're watching me, ever since I came in that place once more, you’ve been here too…
That's why I shouldn't go back.
It’s not that terrible. I was expecting worse, like dropping dead.
But no. You deceived me. Maybe are you not greedy for revenge. Or maybe your vengeance is something else.
How can it be? What did you prepare that I didn't see?
Watching me
Wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
I see again the last time we spoke together. Before you went to interrogate Alphonse Elric.
You put your hand on my shoulder, smiling.
"We did some good work, me and you."
It was true. A great team. Proof : both the Elric brothers were taken care of at once, one kidnapped, the other knocked out.
I don't know why, you hugged me for a few seconds. Then you went.
You believed of course you would see me again after that. You believed we both would live eternally…
Or maybe you didn't. No doubt you didn't. Who's saying you didn't want to betray me, you too…
Then, I was faster.
Fearing you
When I think about it… maybe was it because of that story that you were killed?
Maybe that the last image you saw… was it that, Greed ? Was it me with Archer? Or another one, there are so many, you and me together ?
Is that why the boy killed you?
Loving you
Actually, that's right, I liked you.
I loved you, to put things simply.
But what do you want, Greed… I'm like that. I haven’t won anything. Maybe I even lost something. Because I loved you.
I won't let you pull me down
Anyway, I'm going to leave you for now. And I would like to point out that the ceiling still hasn’t crashed on my head.
But, even, I thought you would at least shake the walls. Is that so terrible, "the other world"? Can't you really do anything ? In that case, you really must be boring.
Why just that laugh ? Annoying, indeed, but…
Unless… no…
I… I think that… I've understood…
Too late! You’ve had your revenge!
That's it, isn't it ? As simple as that!
I'm here… and I'm talking to you… I'm back… and that's what you wanted… to see me… come back…
And I said you I loved you…
Well done, Greed ! Well done! All my congratulations!
I've been had.
Now I just have to leave.
And maybe I'll come back to see you, in this place full of memories.
The end.
Title : Haunted
Scribbler : Mélie (angedemon78@wanadoo.fr)
Kind : Songfic, POV, Yaoi, some spoilers [episode 34 I think], vengeance of the scribbler
Pairing : Greed x Kimblee powaaaa!
Song : "Haunted", by Evanescence
Haunted
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
I should never come back, I suppose. I know it. I should never, never come back here, in this bar where I spoke to him so many times. Now I betrayed him, I should flee. Run away, away.
But I'm not a runaway. And I don't care for consequences. I came back. In spite of what happened, I came back.
And now I hear…
Still can't find what keeps me here
I don't even now why. I crossed the city. I saw the door. And now I'm here.
There was a lot of damage. It was already shabby, the alchemist's attack didn't help, but time made things worse.
The sofa where he was so often sitting on or laying on is not here anymore.
And even if I can hear his voice, no one’s here.
When all this time I've been so hollow inside
I know you're still there
I think I hear him, I even think I see him… just him, not the others, just him.
Stupid Homonculus. To let himself get caught by a young boy. Pffff… and I, I thought he would be the one who’d last the longest.
I knew. I knew immediatly. Something deep in me told me it was over for Greed. And here it is. And I knew it was the boy who killed it. Because it couldn't be anyone else.
And I was right.
Stupid Homonculus. And I’m not at fault. I betrayed him, off course. But I didn't kill him.
I can still hear him speaking… about all these things he said to me, just to me. Things about him, about Homonculi, about sins… as a traitor, I could not have dreamt of anything better.
But that position never delighted me and it still doesn't.
The more time passes, the more I realize I won nothing. Nothing.
To be a State Alchemist… the Crimson Alchemist… if I wanted to kill, I could do it by Greed's side.
Maybe it is in my nature.
I hear him laughing now. Laughing at me.
Watching me
I'm sure of it, I'm sure of it! He is here. He’s seeing me. And he’s laughing.
Laugh, Greed, laugh!
Wanting me
Greed… THE Greed. Always wanting what he could not own.
And me…
He wanted me as soon as he saw me. And here we are.
I can feel you pull me down
He’s laughing at me, he’s laughing at me! Why? I don't know…
Greed was greedy, but he never reduced himself to get what he wanted. I never saw him implore, nor cry…
He could threaten. But he never did that with me.
It didn't bring me anything. Nothing good, nothing bad. Period.
So why are you laughing?
Fearing you
The pleasure I got out of killing, of hearing the explosion. That never impressed him or scared him. That should have rather amused him.
He should have suspected it, that fool.
I’d always hurt both the enemy and my comrades. He knew it. He knew my reputation. He should have suspected it.
Loving you
I wonder what hurt him the most. Was it really that I betrayed him?
Or was it to see Archer by my side? Did he believe I loved another man? Did he believe I’d lied since the beginning?
I lied, of course. But, strangely, not about that.
I won't let you pull me down
Yes, I know… strange, mad, whatever you want ! But you believed in me!
Who's the fool, here?
I'm still alive, ME! And you said so many things that I could use…
Now, I can be greedy, too! I can want glory! And I can own it! Yes, I can own it… I know how to kill the Homunculi !
Because you told me, too, you stupid !
Maybe the boy knows, too… but I can kill him, if I wish to. And hear his body explode…
I'm still alive. And I want to last long.
So why doesn’t this laugh stop?
Hunting you I can smell you - Alive
Your heart's pounding in my head
It's as if he was still here. Still alive. Still sitting by my side. Still his arm around my shoulders. Still talking, talking, talking… getting closer to me.
I see myself pretending I had not seen anything.
Greed, the Greed… you wanted everything. Freedom. Eternity. And me.
One, by freedom, I assume, this isn't bad.
Watching me
You believed you knew everything. You believed nothing ever escaped you. You believed you were invincible.
It's the proof you were wrong.
So stop laughing at me like that!
Wanting me
You saw some things, off course.
You saw me, that night. You were sleeping, or I thought so, on that sofa. I got closer to observe you. And suddenly you opened your eyes and you brought me to you.
I can feel you pull me down
That time, I didn't see you coming. But I repayed it well to you!
That consternated face you made, realizing… you were not proud anymore… you were not in control anymore.
I would have enjoyed seeing you die… just for being here.
But why, in spite of what I'm saying, are you still laughing?
Saving me
I, I helped you get away, helped you leave that place you’d been enclosed in for a hundred years!
Oh, how much the thought of finding yourself enclosed again chilled you, and even frightened you! At least this didn’t happen to you. Look at the bright side.
Raping me
We're both chargeless… you surprised me once, I surprised you once.
However, today, you're still haunting me. What's going on? You had my body and my love, I had your life. For me, and I'm an Alchemist, it's a very good example of equivalent exchange.
Watching me
You're still there, you're laughing, you're watching me, ever since I came in that place once more, you’ve been here too…
That's why I shouldn't go back.
It’s not that terrible. I was expecting worse, like dropping dead.
But no. You deceived me. Maybe are you not greedy for revenge. Or maybe your vengeance is something else.
How can it be? What did you prepare that I didn't see?
Watching me
Wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
I see again the last time we spoke together. Before you went to interrogate Alphonse Elric.
You put your hand on my shoulder, smiling.
"We did some good work, me and you."
It was true. A great team. Proof : both the Elric brothers were taken care of at once, one kidnapped, the other knocked out.
I don't know why, you hugged me for a few seconds. Then you went.
You believed of course you would see me again after that. You believed we both would live eternally…
Or maybe you didn't. No doubt you didn't. Who's saying you didn't want to betray me, you too…
Then, I was faster.
Fearing you
When I think about it… maybe was it because of that story that you were killed?
Maybe that the last image you saw… was it that, Greed ? Was it me with Archer? Or another one, there are so many, you and me together ?
Is that why the boy killed you?
Loving you
Actually, that's right, I liked you.
I loved you, to put things simply.
But what do you want, Greed… I'm like that. I haven’t won anything. Maybe I even lost something. Because I loved you.
I won't let you pull me down
Anyway, I'm going to leave you for now. And I would like to point out that the ceiling still hasn’t crashed on my head.
But, even, I thought you would at least shake the walls. Is that so terrible, "the other world"? Can't you really do anything ? In that case, you really must be boring.
Why just that laugh ? Annoying, indeed, but…
Unless… no…
I… I think that… I've understood…
Too late! You’ve had your revenge!
That's it, isn't it ? As simple as that!
I'm here… and I'm talking to you… I'm back… and that's what you wanted… to see me… come back…
And I said you I loved you…
Well done, Greed ! Well done! All my congratulations!
I've been had.
Now I just have to leave.
And maybe I'll come back to see you, in this place full of memories.
The end.