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I want to write journal but I don’t know what to say. I feel like I’m in bad place with dreams that just keep getting weirder and sicker. Every night for a wile now, I have been having some very crazy weird dreams. Ones that make you wake up and feel something that you never want to feel. I have been so tired lately and all I want to do is eat and sleep. This is not good at all. Right now, all I want to do is go to sleep but at the same time I’m scared to do so. I don’t want to dream the dreams that I have been dreaming.
I also for some time now have been trying to reach out to my best friend and been letting her know how I been feeling and nothing. I have asked over and over if she would like to go for a walk and there is always some reason she can’t but would love to do just give her a call and we can do it. That is fucking bullshit. I havn’t hardly spent any time with her and have been trying to for some time. I keep thinking things because of this. Am I that bad of a friend? I could really use a hug right now. I don’t know what else to do to make her see that maybe I really need a friend right now. I can’t just show up at her house with crying red eyes like she says I can. She hasn’t been home all week and won’t be for I don’t. Then when she is home, she is taking care of baby, doing things she didn’t do all day long, and spending time with her hubby to be. Right now, she is in bed.
I don’t know what else to say. Nevertheless, I am going to have a very stiff drink. Wish I could have some other stuff.
I also for some time now have been trying to reach out to my best friend and been letting her know how I been feeling and nothing. I have asked over and over if she would like to go for a walk and there is always some reason she can’t but would love to do just give her a call and we can do it. That is fucking bullshit. I havn’t hardly spent any time with her and have been trying to for some time. I keep thinking things because of this. Am I that bad of a friend? I could really use a hug right now. I don’t know what else to do to make her see that maybe I really need a friend right now. I can’t just show up at her house with crying red eyes like she says I can. She hasn’t been home all week and won’t be for I don’t. Then when she is home, she is taking care of baby, doing things she didn’t do all day long, and spending time with her hubby to be. Right now, she is in bed.
I don’t know what else to say. Nevertheless, I am going to have a very stiff drink. Wish I could have some other stuff.