what do you do

[grf]

when you run off trying to find yourself and you endup realizing you already knew and where just to afraid to admit it

pumping through your vains it caresses your body with
the ease of silk
you wonder how to leave it behind to drain the past from your body
discovering the need of the person you once were
you wear the new as a cloke
the same, the one an an emperor once called new to hide it all
folling only thoses that want to be folled you have changed nothing
to this hinderness you stide on forward deeping the loss
to throw
away life
of a home
why, for a neverending surch for a new one i have a home
it is here deep in my past
my home if my life
nomatter how you live your life it is your home it can be empty or it can be fool
it is your coice tweather to wellcome others in
to throw a party or and bash
or a one on one soul search excurtion
you can not loss your home you can sometimes not find the door
you can't leave it behind it will folow
you can't kill it it is your heart

but the girl on the train in floreze was right if you put your hart on your suitcase you are never far from home
but this suit cas of my past is quit hevy

and i left two much behind

i have discoved something tragickly well
i think i am done
i have not found what i wanted to
i realized so much more
i just can't leave i have becomeed traped with in these whaters and i need help
wow me asking for help thats odd
but who helps people like me
i avoid help as long as posible i will run before you can offer
i will then feel bad when you cant keep up
so runn if you want or not i will mostlikely dislike it either way

but to all iu must menton this is an old entry that was privet and now has been editted and most problems have been adressed
it will not be long till we se each other again so
take care and be well injoy your life for it is your to fill

t