not too pretty tonight
Today at school was hard man. I just feel so out of place there. Everybody seems prettier and smarter and more popular. It's like being sucked back into 6th grade for fucks sake. I'm in goddam law school and I'm worried about this stupid popularity contest. I know its not really that. I know (and here goes the cult of therapy) that I'm just feeling really insecure about if I can do this - if I can suceed at this thing - and it all just comes out as feeling less than. But I really don't feel like I fit in there at all!!!! I need to stop trash talking myself and just realize that I have survived this far and I can do whatever I put my mind to (rah rah go team - bleg)
I gotta get out of this slump. I mean its not that bad I guess. Just keep trucking and do the work.
ok - tired and going to bed. I hate being this negative but I just feel so akward at that school sometimes.
I gotta get out of this slump. I mean its not that bad I guess. Just keep trucking and do the work.
ok - tired and going to bed. I hate being this negative but I just feel so akward at that school sometimes.