floating in the ether
it makes me tired. i'm done with it but it seems I have no choice because that is all I have been and still am doing. maybe i do have a choice, but I can't figure out what to do to fix it. i'm tired of floating, tired of roaming. it feels like being an ethereal vagabond, i don't have any place physically or spiritually that feels like home. I don't need a god, I don't need meds, I just need to figure out what position in life makes me happy and I need to figure out how to get there. I think first though is I need to figure out how I seem to constantly fuck things up for myself and stop doing it. I'm tired of fucking up. I'm tired of failing. I can't think of anything of importance that I have done anything other than fuck up at. I just want to know when I get mine.