"careless memories..."
"Table For Glasses"
Sweep the dirty stairs, the ones I waited on.
This is just for me.
I felt it watching her.
And it happens too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
It happens too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
Where do you intend to go with dirty dress?
Lead my skeptic sight to the table and the light.
It happened too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
Lead my skeptic sight.
Not asking of me anything, saying nothing about what it means,
without anybody telling me how I should feel,
Not asking of me anything, saying nothing about what it means,
without anybody telling me how I should feel.
What I should do.
Lead my skeptic sight to the table and the light.
"Just Watch the Fireworks"
Here you can be anything.
I think that scares you.
I've been here before but only by myself.
What giving up gives you and where giving up takes you.
I've had and I've been.
Here in center frame, there's only air.
Just enough space to fit.
I said it out loud over and over but what do I know.
I said it out loud but it did not help.
I'll stop now.
Just so I can hear you I stay up as late as it takes, as long as it takes.
I promised I'd see it again.
I promised I'd see this with you now.
These two songs remind me of a very bad day. I think I've wrote in here before about it. It was the day I had to drive my mom to the hospital because her head hurt, and I slammed my fist on the car door because the window wouldn't roll up, and I sat in a random parking lot waiting for her. I was scared because it was like 2 AM and I was alone in a car with the window down, not to mention it was February and freezing. Strangely, I can't remember if it was last February, or two February's ago. Time flies. Anyway, I had just obtained Jimmy Eat World's "Clarity" album, and for some reason, was majorly bumming about Mark. While I'll never remember for certain why I had major, major issues with him around this point, I think it was around the one year mark, I believe.
That whole period was awful for me. It's amazing to look back because everything feels so dark and depressing when I think about it - it's nice to see how things have come along. It wasn't just my issues with Mark - it was the whole living situation in Burbank, with the Simon and Stella. I think perhaps that is why I invested so much of my happiness in Mark, and why I stressed so much about every little thing - if anything happened to jeopardize my one good thing, I don't know what would have become of me. Thankfully, this is not the case these days. We are both happily independent and yet codependent at the same time.
Of course, I still have my neurotic moments - more often than necessary. =)
not asking much of anything
said you're nothing but the one i need
don't need anybody telling me
that i should go
Sweep the dirty stairs, the ones I waited on.
This is just for me.
I felt it watching her.
And it happens too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
It happens too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
Where do you intend to go with dirty dress?
Lead my skeptic sight to the table and the light.
It happened too fast to make sense of it,
Make it last.
Lead my skeptic sight.
Not asking of me anything, saying nothing about what it means,
without anybody telling me how I should feel,
Not asking of me anything, saying nothing about what it means,
without anybody telling me how I should feel.
What I should do.
Lead my skeptic sight to the table and the light.
"Just Watch the Fireworks"
Here you can be anything.
I think that scares you.
I've been here before but only by myself.
What giving up gives you and where giving up takes you.
I've had and I've been.
Here in center frame, there's only air.
Just enough space to fit.
I said it out loud over and over but what do I know.
I said it out loud but it did not help.
I'll stop now.
Just so I can hear you I stay up as late as it takes, as long as it takes.
I promised I'd see it again.
I promised I'd see this with you now.
These two songs remind me of a very bad day. I think I've wrote in here before about it. It was the day I had to drive my mom to the hospital because her head hurt, and I slammed my fist on the car door because the window wouldn't roll up, and I sat in a random parking lot waiting for her. I was scared because it was like 2 AM and I was alone in a car with the window down, not to mention it was February and freezing. Strangely, I can't remember if it was last February, or two February's ago. Time flies. Anyway, I had just obtained Jimmy Eat World's "Clarity" album, and for some reason, was majorly bumming about Mark. While I'll never remember for certain why I had major, major issues with him around this point, I think it was around the one year mark, I believe.
That whole period was awful for me. It's amazing to look back because everything feels so dark and depressing when I think about it - it's nice to see how things have come along. It wasn't just my issues with Mark - it was the whole living situation in Burbank, with the Simon and Stella. I think perhaps that is why I invested so much of my happiness in Mark, and why I stressed so much about every little thing - if anything happened to jeopardize my one good thing, I don't know what would have become of me. Thankfully, this is not the case these days. We are both happily independent and yet codependent at the same time.
Of course, I still have my neurotic moments - more often than necessary. =)
not asking much of anything
said you're nothing but the one i need
don't need anybody telling me
that i should go