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standing on the pier, watching the smoke from my cigarette intertwine with the steam rising off the still water. looking at the stars, so bright their reflection can be seen in the calm water below. soft lyrics of "remember when" linger in the distance. yet this scene of serenity hardly reflects the uproar of uneasiness swelling inside me. my mind is comsumed in thoughts of you. i stand atop the highest mountain, screaming a thousand i love yous. can you hear me? do you remember those words i spoke to you, or are my expressions of this feeling nothing more than overused words passing through you? i don't know what to think, what to feel, what to say, and more importantly, what to do. i guess knowing nothing is better than knowing at all, or is that just a reason to let my imagination speak your truth. i've waited all my life to know this feeling, but does anyone every truly know it? i've waited all my life to cross this line, but does anyone know where that line begins and ends? my world does not revlove around you, yet my every thought is consumed by your presence in my life, it keeps me grounded when confusion surrounds me. when i look at you, i see myself, i would be lost, wondering empty roads without knowing you and slowly, i feel you slipping through my fingers. what can i do to bring you back? if you are free, will that make us stronger?
standing on that same pier, eight hours later, a different scene brought realization and comfort upon my uneasiness. the smoke from my cigarette still mixing with vapor rising from the lake, yet a slight breeze creates ripples in the now moving water before me. the sun quickly clears the horizon, bringing light to every inch of this creation as well as my troubled soul. every sense of uneasiness has left my body as i gaze at this animated scene. i'm not sure what brought on this restoration of inner peace, but then again, most things are unknow in this bizarre thing commonly know as life.
standing on that same pier, eight hours later, a different scene brought realization and comfort upon my uneasiness. the smoke from my cigarette still mixing with vapor rising from the lake, yet a slight breeze creates ripples in the now moving water before me. the sun quickly clears the horizon, bringing light to every inch of this creation as well as my troubled soul. every sense of uneasiness has left my body as i gaze at this animated scene. i'm not sure what brought on this restoration of inner peace, but then again, most things are unknow in this bizarre thing commonly know as life.