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I never though i could feel this way, pain so harsh it keeps me awake at night. my bruised and battered heart can take no more. My entire heart, mind, body and soul was put into us, but my desperate fight to keep us alive only resulted in me drowning your heart. to hear you say i never loved you, i never needed you, i never tried, it tears my heart into a million pieces. but you deserved it, making me believe you were never in love with me, pushing me far far away to the brink of insanity. you deserve what i did to you! or maybe not, maybe i deserve the pain i feel now. who knows anymore. but through all the lies, painful memories there has been an angel by my side. she has given me a new life, a happy one at that. She came from above when i needed her the most, taken my heart into her hands and is mending those millions of pieces back together faster than i ever though possible. She has made me realize what i need in my life and if i could have someone that is half the person she is, i would be grateful for eternity! Fate twists and turns life beyond our wildest imaginations, gives us pain we never though possible and yet that of the opposite extreme. Fate has sent me an angel from above to bless my life, my mind, and my soul. I never knew it was possible to feel this much anguish, but at the same time have your heart filled with so much passion and love?