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Fuck this. Fuuuuuuuck this. I am done with working on this stupid house and basement renovation on my own. Fuck this!
See me? I am NOT self-motivated. I do NOT work well by myself. I am a TEAM PLAYER. Hear that?!? Team. ME in a TEAM. I am a team player, team leader, team fucking manager if I have to be but fuck this working on my own!
Me <~~~ NOT self-motivated. More like "we're in this together, so I'm gonna pull my full weight for us to be successful" motivated. And even a bit of "oh, let me help you too, cuz we're a TEAM" motivated. NOT self-motivated. My self is WAAAAY unimpressed with myself and myself is doing nothing to change that attitude.
I fucking HATE working by myself. If there's someone else here working on the house with me, I'm kamikaze gung-ho, working 12 hour days. But the second people leave, it's like... Well I don't fucking wanna do this shit anymore. I'm gonna waste my life on the computer instead. Not even doing anything useful like unpacking either! ARGGGH
I don't mind being alone sometimes if there's nothing I'm supposed to do. I like reading by myself. That's a self activity. But I'm tired of not having people around. ESPECIALLY I'm tired of trying to renovate an entire FUCKING basement by myself!!! Fuck sanding drywall, fuck painting drywall, fuck installing trim, and FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING CLOSET INSTALLATIONS. If I have to assemble another goddamn drawer unit this week (Oooooh, and I bet I will) I'm gonna move to Alaska. Or Germany. Or somewhere fucking else where there's already fucking drawer units built!!!
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH!!!
.....*breathe* Well the one thing I've at least learned from this entire experience is that no, I do not want to EVER be my own boss.
And also that Solatubes are fucking bright. They just got installed today in the bathrooms.
See me? I am NOT self-motivated. I do NOT work well by myself. I am a TEAM PLAYER. Hear that?!? Team. ME in a TEAM. I am a team player, team leader, team fucking manager if I have to be but fuck this working on my own!
Me <~~~ NOT self-motivated. More like "we're in this together, so I'm gonna pull my full weight for us to be successful" motivated. And even a bit of "oh, let me help you too, cuz we're a TEAM" motivated. NOT self-motivated. My self is WAAAAY unimpressed with myself and myself is doing nothing to change that attitude.
I fucking HATE working by myself. If there's someone else here working on the house with me, I'm kamikaze gung-ho, working 12 hour days. But the second people leave, it's like... Well I don't fucking wanna do this shit anymore. I'm gonna waste my life on the computer instead. Not even doing anything useful like unpacking either! ARGGGH
I don't mind being alone sometimes if there's nothing I'm supposed to do. I like reading by myself. That's a self activity. But I'm tired of not having people around. ESPECIALLY I'm tired of trying to renovate an entire FUCKING basement by myself!!! Fuck sanding drywall, fuck painting drywall, fuck installing trim, and FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING CLOSET INSTALLATIONS. If I have to assemble another goddamn drawer unit this week (Oooooh, and I bet I will) I'm gonna move to Alaska. Or Germany. Or somewhere fucking else where there's already fucking drawer units built!!!
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH!!!
.....*breathe* Well the one thing I've at least learned from this entire experience is that no, I do not want to EVER be my own boss.
And also that Solatubes are fucking bright. They just got installed today in the bathrooms.