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Haven been in the best mood recently. The news from work has affected me quite badly. Just like rs, I've been trying to curb those thoughts and feelings with logical ones. Trying to be hopeful, trying to be nonchalant, just trying to accept things in the most lighted hearted way possible. there would be times I'd find myself tearing at the slightest things - to songs, dramas or things I don't Remb alr - as though these are the tears that I've been controlling badly and they need to find some avenues to get themselves out.
Sadly to say, I miss the nights when I could talk to him over the phone before I sleep. There was this magical calming effect from him that could soothe my thoughts and feelings. I would feel that my day could have a proper closure after talking to him over the phone. We would still end our nights over the phone on days when we went out on dates. I mean some people would wonder why the need to still talk on the phone when we just met for the whole day and bid farewell in person half an hour ago. I Dontk how to explain to them too. We just naturally grew this habit. He used to say my voice made him wanna sleep, which is probably why he would call me before his nap every time. So yes,I miss all these conversations, all these talkings over the phone on my bed. And when I got upset with stuff ( just like what I am feeling now), i would want to talk to him. He was that magic pill and that calming effect. I had tried to talk to other guys over the phone. I'm not trying to compare, but it's not the same. And if it isn what I'm looking for, then why the need to talk over the phone with them.
Sadly to say, I miss the nights when I could talk to him over the phone before I sleep. There was this magical calming effect from him that could soothe my thoughts and feelings. I would feel that my day could have a proper closure after talking to him over the phone. We would still end our nights over the phone on days when we went out on dates. I mean some people would wonder why the need to still talk on the phone when we just met for the whole day and bid farewell in person half an hour ago. I Dontk how to explain to them too. We just naturally grew this habit. He used to say my voice made him wanna sleep, which is probably why he would call me before his nap every time. So yes,I miss all these conversations, all these talkings over the phone on my bed. And when I got upset with stuff ( just like what I am feeling now), i would want to talk to him. He was that magic pill and that calming effect. I had tried to talk to other guys over the phone. I'm not trying to compare, but it's not the same. And if it isn what I'm looking for, then why the need to talk over the phone with them.