Seriously...I'm gone for a few days and...
...and LJ is just full of posts! Who'd a thunk it? People would write something on LJ? Anyway...I wasn't gone really. I was just distracted. I had the bro home for this weekend. I worked too. *sigh* Also, sadly, I've been feeling down. I got better later on today. I went "screw it!" and just decided to take some me time.
"Wait, you've been having your own you time every time you're off work?" No...not true. My brain likes to go places in which it isn't physically. It thinks too much is what I mean, about things I cannot control or have no want to control, but somehow...think "What if this were to happen...it could be fixed by...and this...oh yes, don't forget to worry worry wor..." See? Insanity. So I call BS on that and give myself a one day holiday. I don't care. I need it. Sure, ...ok...it won't be a 100% holiday. I need to do the floors tomorrow, vacuum and mop. But, as far as my brain. I need it. Contemplating a speaking fast.
I used to actually do those. It was so...I could say cathardic, but it was more like instead of working through something, not speaking was a relief. I didn't have to comment on some things. I didn't have to worry about others. I just sat or smiled or walked. I haven't had one of those in ages. Years even. It's hard to not talk when your job necesitates it. You can pull the 'I've got larynxitis' ploy only once..before it gets totally annoying. You have to mouth the words 'I have larynxitis' and most people aren't too keen to read lips. Instead you get "What'd you say?" "I can't hear you." "Perhaps if you said that louder dear." Or, of course the people who don't care who just ignore you...which is fine. I wouldn't need them anyway. *sigh* I think it's time I went to bed. Look at the time! Ok, I'll leave another post for what I did this weekend. Maybe. :) Goodnight all.