"Dying's just another way to leave the ones you love."

[greygirlbeast]

I don't write about my dreams much anymore. Frankly, after I began..well...the new drugs, back in 2010, things got better. Dreamsickness became almost a phenomenon of the past. But Lamictal can cause vivid dreams, and when I have to increase my dose - as I have to do every now and then - I get vivid dreams. Crazy vivid, like the old days. Dreams

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[elmocho]

I go through a few hours of strange mourning, for what I lost on waking, no matter how terrible it might have been. It was a universe, if "only" of my imagination.

I used to be able to remember only a few of those. I wish I had a good record of how long I took Effexor, an SNRI, because when I would skip a dose, I would get that transportation to another reality. You are right about the sense of backstory, of having a whole other history.

Recently I have noticed it due to lack of sleep. I've heard when the brain gets deprived of REM sleep, it redoubles when it gets there. I discovered about two years ago I had sleep apnea, and in the sleep test, when they started to get the CPAP calibrated correctly so I could sleep, and I plunged into REM, I saw such a landscape, with a rock arch overhead, yet looking out into a valley with fantastic crystal formations the size of small bushes. I remember wanting to savor the view, and remember it because it was so beautiful. Then they woke me up, and I just have these little bits to grasp at.

Neither my memories or the words I have to describe them probably equal half of what the images meant then. Do you retain much of your other worlds, or do they drift away? I can keep some of the plot and images if I jot them down quickly enough, but the feeling, mood and sense of place seem to vanish pretty quickly for me.

I have gotten some good ideas out of them, but a lot of the craft seems to be taking the portions of the dream that function according to its logic and shoehorning them into narrative without losing what made the dream special in the first place.

[greygirlbeast]

Do you retain much of your other worlds, or do they drift away?

Sadly, only rarely, and only small bits. Elsewise, I'd have awoken this morning knowing how to speak Polish...or something...