Going for a fresh start ...
I want to start this LJ with an apology to my family and friends.
Most of you - especially those, who can only contact me online - already realized that I do have a really bad habit - namely simply disappearing from the internet from time to time with no explanation.
This mostly happens, when
- I'm very busy
- I'm feeling overwhelmed by a situation and cannot decide how to deal with it (eg. important decisions)
- I'm for some reason feeling really bad
Most of you also already know that I am in a stage of comprehension and change.
I did realize by now (finally!) that my disappearing not only is not the nicest thing to do, I actually can see that I am really hurting you with it. I have to admit that I was not aware of the fact that you are worrying about me so much. And for some reason I also was not able to see that I gave you the feeling that I'm not interested in or caring for you.
I'm really sorry for treating you so bad!
I assure you that I AM interested in you, that I Am caring for you and that I really DO love you all! You're what's most important to me in my life.
That's why I started this journal. I want to keep you all up to date from now on. I don't want anyone of you having to worry about me just because I again didn't reply to an e-mail, note or sms soon or at all. I don't want anyone of you to feel left out from my life.
I will also try to get better and faster in replying to your messages. I know I promised this often before and didn't get much better till now but I want you to know that I keep working on it. I promise!
Again, I am really really sorry!
King Taibu, Kimani, Azrael, Asten, Pan, Greif, Elik, Rocky, Ran, Shibu, Chireiya, Draco, Bobszy, Epantiras, my friends on DA, my parents and grandparents and everyone else I did hurt or get into trouble.
Please forgive me!
I also want to thank you that you were so patient and holding on to me all this time. Thank you so much!!!! This means a whole lot to me. I want to do everything in order to become as good a friend to you as you are to me. Please be patient with me one more time and give me this chance. I really DO want to do things better from now on.
Most of you - especially those, who can only contact me online - already realized that I do have a really bad habit - namely simply disappearing from the internet from time to time with no explanation.
This mostly happens, when
- I'm very busy
- I'm feeling overwhelmed by a situation and cannot decide how to deal with it (eg. important decisions)
- I'm for some reason feeling really bad
Most of you also already know that I am in a stage of comprehension and change.
I did realize by now (finally!) that my disappearing not only is not the nicest thing to do, I actually can see that I am really hurting you with it. I have to admit that I was not aware of the fact that you are worrying about me so much. And for some reason I also was not able to see that I gave you the feeling that I'm not interested in or caring for you.
I'm really sorry for treating you so bad!
I assure you that I AM interested in you, that I Am caring for you and that I really DO love you all! You're what's most important to me in my life.
That's why I started this journal. I want to keep you all up to date from now on. I don't want anyone of you having to worry about me just because I again didn't reply to an e-mail, note or sms soon or at all. I don't want anyone of you to feel left out from my life.
I will also try to get better and faster in replying to your messages. I know I promised this often before and didn't get much better till now but I want you to know that I keep working on it. I promise!
Again, I am really really sorry!
King Taibu, Kimani, Azrael, Asten, Pan, Greif, Elik, Rocky, Ran, Shibu, Chireiya, Draco, Bobszy, Epantiras, my friends on DA, my parents and grandparents and everyone else I did hurt or get into trouble.
Please forgive me!
I also want to thank you that you were so patient and holding on to me all this time. Thank you so much!!!! This means a whole lot to me. I want to do everything in order to become as good a friend to you as you are to me. Please be patient with me one more time and give me this chance. I really DO want to do things better from now on.