family grows and everyone knows
having a family is definitely faith in practice.
noah has had diarrhea for two days now. according to the doctor, its just going to be a diaper changing fest for the next few days, unless he shows other signs of illness or dehydration.
i bought so much canvas the other day... canvas and paint and felt.
it is raining and still the construction goes on across the street... the constant beepbeepbeep and dirt moving. i never, ever thought id leave this place, this house, this neighborhood. i figured we'd be here til we were in our 50s and then we'd move to the river. now im not as certain.
i am trying to drink more & more water.
i go back to work in less than a month.
i am going with my mom to her doctor appointment on friday. then we will Know.
i feel that all the time & energy i spent with my grandmother last year, while she was dying, was also preparation for me (possibly Now) taking care of my own mother. it is hard for me to think about it too much. i was extremely close with my grandmother, but she was Not My Mother. the sense of detachment and peace i had with her, i think would be a lot harder to maintain when dealing with my mother. we shall see, though.
each part of life is just preparation for the next.
so sleepy.
noah has had diarrhea for two days now. according to the doctor, its just going to be a diaper changing fest for the next few days, unless he shows other signs of illness or dehydration.
i bought so much canvas the other day... canvas and paint and felt.
it is raining and still the construction goes on across the street... the constant beepbeepbeep and dirt moving. i never, ever thought id leave this place, this house, this neighborhood. i figured we'd be here til we were in our 50s and then we'd move to the river. now im not as certain.
i am trying to drink more & more water.
i go back to work in less than a month.
i am going with my mom to her doctor appointment on friday. then we will Know.
i feel that all the time & energy i spent with my grandmother last year, while she was dying, was also preparation for me (possibly Now) taking care of my own mother. it is hard for me to think about it too much. i was extremely close with my grandmother, but she was Not My Mother. the sense of detachment and peace i had with her, i think would be a lot harder to maintain when dealing with my mother. we shall see, though.
each part of life is just preparation for the next.
so sleepy.