bah whizzes
hum nothing interesting today. i was stressed about my checking account for a bit but everything seems to be working out just fine. got my hair cut short as well today. it's nice and a relief cuz all the blonde is gone now. nothing interesting in school either. i'm annoyed with a certain person and they don't even care but you know whatever. nothing else conflicting in my life i suppose. see what happens when i leave my little bubble of solitude? i get hurt. it's not even worth it to me anymore. i'm tired of it. all i've dealt with all my life is shitty relationships and why haven't i learned yet? i don't know. i'm even starting to rethink some of my friendships. i'm not depressed really, just thinking. all of this solitude and alone time does somethin to ya. i wish i wasn't so dependent upon the people around me. i guess i wish a lot of things. i also guess that there's nothing i can do about how i am...although i can try to change it, the memory will always persist. and i feel like i'll always go back to how i am now. too much confusement. yess i made my own word. on a different note, i've been watching shrek 2 religiously. at least twice a day. for some reason that movie never gets old, and i have time on my hands so why not. now i feel like hilary duff. ugh. that makes me think of duffman from the simpsons. hahahahahahahaaha. ok it wasn't that funny. iknow i know. sorry. i'm such an idiot. honestly.
that was for you doug.
that was for you doug.