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how does this happen to someone? like a broken record, i love her. sharp edges around our relationship, draw blood, bring pain, but my heart is open for her, unlocked, unhinged. almost a week ago i saw her and i still feel her beside me. she touched my arm, hugged me, and i couldnt remember the last time i was touched. (only her. theres always been only her.) she called me baby; it slipped from her mouth and i pretended not to hear her. she apologized, even though i didnt look up, didnt react. she apologized still and i didnt know how to feel. we should be together. i still believe that. i still fucking believe that.