Air venting
You ever get that feeling where you feel like a piece of shit to the world? I shouldn't feel that way though. I know there's someone who needs me, and I know they're not the only person....I just feel like a damn burden on everyone, to everyone where I live, my mom, and my other half. Odd. I feel like a burden to my other half. I don't really feel like a burden on him really. It's mostly on the other things. My other half is going away soon, which is why I feel like a burden on him sometimes 'cause he's got his own big life things to deal with, but I'm realizing inside my head that I'm going to have to live a life without that half around all the time, which means that now I'm going to have to be aware of who I'm surrounded by, and that sucks because that's when I start feeling like a burden. The only reason why I feel like a burden on my mom is 'cause she gets all stressed out when I talk to her about the hard things I'm dealing with in my life. She gets stressed out even when the thing isn't even that big of a deal to me. She feels the pain I'm going through....or something like that. Anyway, she gets stressed out by what I go through, so I don't really feel like I can disclose all of my feelings or problems to her, which makes me feel like a burden when I do. I talk to her because I have no one else to talk to, and when I do talk to other people, I feel like I'm just feeling sorry for myself or something and I hate feeling that way 'cause then I just feel like a whiney baby when sometimes I just need to feel bad 'cause then I feel okay later on after I get the feelings off my chest....sort of anyway. So there. I just disclosed to whoever reads this and I feel a tad better....I think....Who knows when we ever really feel better....