Yesterday...
After the weird ex episode, I was wiggy most of the day afterwards. I was all hangy with my peeps but felt all non-creative and useless, I hated everything I did, every attempt at a creative thought was all craptacular. I felt like a heel and just crappy. And I was surly and had a headache and was tired, I probably should have went home and took my black cloud with me, but I didn't want to go home and be alone. *sighs*
But by morning light, I'm better and I'll be off to bed in a while and will hopefully feel better afterwards. Tonight is Kenneth's game and its gameness so I'm looking forward to it, if I can't get ahold of these mood swings that seem to follow game though, don't know how long I'll keep it up, the marathon gaming. Its all big creative dramatic highness, then when it's over I come down hard and just completely bottom out. We'll see though, I may just be adjusting...and coping. Could be worse, and other than the whole loneliness gig...things are good, love my friends and glad I can hang with them and stuff. My life is fuller and richer because of the people who are there for me. And I'm glad I can always return the favor always will.
/Tear
Anyway...that is all.
But by morning light, I'm better and I'll be off to bed in a while and will hopefully feel better afterwards. Tonight is Kenneth's game and its gameness so I'm looking forward to it, if I can't get ahold of these mood swings that seem to follow game though, don't know how long I'll keep it up, the marathon gaming. Its all big creative dramatic highness, then when it's over I come down hard and just completely bottom out. We'll see though, I may just be adjusting...and coping. Could be worse, and other than the whole loneliness gig...things are good, love my friends and glad I can hang with them and stuff. My life is fuller and richer because of the people who are there for me. And I'm glad I can always return the favor always will.
/Tear
Anyway...that is all.