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i'm not sure what to say. i don't really know how to because i wasn't in your shoes....this time. i don't even know if you were mad at ME. but probably. and i can see where you're coming from. but also understand that it's not intentional and i know the same feeling. from you. it happened this summer. and i'm not saying this is karma--i'm saying i understand. and i'm also saying ----well i don't know what i'm saying. i think i'm trying to say i'm trying to see things through your eyes but i can't in this exact situation. does this even make sense? probably not and this will most likely cause a fight. if it hasn't already. i hate not knowing anything and being excluded which is exactly what's been going on so i don't understand how you say you feel the same hurt by it and then do the exact same thing, and not even talk to me about it. i thought we were closer than that--actually i know we are. this is ridiculuous that i'm saying this in livejournal. but this isn't something like US. we usually talk about everything. and i hate how you couldn't have said SOMETHING about it to me instead of immedietly ignoring me for a week without even telling me what was wrong, and then ignoring me again when i asked. before i had a complete different mind-set about this whole thing, but now it's taken a 360. like COMPLETE. in a good way, because it's not worth it.