I walk the line
Cash was the greatest songwriter ever.
I'm really mixed up right now. I've been thinking about someone and thinking that they are thinking about me. But I've gotten mixed signals from them, so I don't know what the fuck is going on. The world gets in the way every time I feel an opportunity arise. It's all very shaky. I'm not sure if there's anything there or not. So indecisive and meek. Sometime soon I need to speak up.
Went to the radio station last night. That was cool. Smoked cigarettes out on the roof, looked through CDs. Got some free music. Felt lonely and drunk. Stayed up all night talking to this random guy in his 30's. He was a lot drunker than I was. We talked about the Civil War, and how I'll end up spending thousands of dollars trying to get pussy. I don't know, it was strange, very candid, if you can say that. The guy was alright, but I could tell he lacked a lot in the social area.
Went downtown again on friday, Mallory wasn't at Amici so I went to Roadhouse and drank a ton. Wandered around, saw a couple bands at DT's and JR's Baitshack upstairs. Went to last call, somehow ended up on stage singing a couple lines from a Rage song. That was crazy. Made it to washington street tavern, stopped drinking and went home. God I'm tired and lonely.
Wake up before 10, went a lifted weights. I don't want to become some musclehead, but it makes me feel good sometimes. Plus it helps me get over a hangover, and gives me time to think. I guess I'm getting comfortable, but I know I'm missing something. Someone is more like it. I need someone badly, but not for some bullshit. I want something friendly and less than emotional. Maybe I just want someone to fuck, but I don't think it's all about that. Really just someone to hold. To sleep next to. I have a futon bed that folds into a couch. I've been sleeping on it while it's folded up. Makes me feel more secure in my loneliness, because at least that way I don't feel sad when I notice the empty space next to me everytime I wake up. Fuckit, I just need sleep and a week off from everyone.
I'm really mixed up right now. I've been thinking about someone and thinking that they are thinking about me. But I've gotten mixed signals from them, so I don't know what the fuck is going on. The world gets in the way every time I feel an opportunity arise. It's all very shaky. I'm not sure if there's anything there or not. So indecisive and meek. Sometime soon I need to speak up.
Went to the radio station last night. That was cool. Smoked cigarettes out on the roof, looked through CDs. Got some free music. Felt lonely and drunk. Stayed up all night talking to this random guy in his 30's. He was a lot drunker than I was. We talked about the Civil War, and how I'll end up spending thousands of dollars trying to get pussy. I don't know, it was strange, very candid, if you can say that. The guy was alright, but I could tell he lacked a lot in the social area.
Went downtown again on friday, Mallory wasn't at Amici so I went to Roadhouse and drank a ton. Wandered around, saw a couple bands at DT's and JR's Baitshack upstairs. Went to last call, somehow ended up on stage singing a couple lines from a Rage song. That was crazy. Made it to washington street tavern, stopped drinking and went home. God I'm tired and lonely.
Wake up before 10, went a lifted weights. I don't want to become some musclehead, but it makes me feel good sometimes. Plus it helps me get over a hangover, and gives me time to think. I guess I'm getting comfortable, but I know I'm missing something. Someone is more like it. I need someone badly, but not for some bullshit. I want something friendly and less than emotional. Maybe I just want someone to fuck, but I don't think it's all about that. Really just someone to hold. To sleep next to. I have a futon bed that folds into a couch. I've been sleeping on it while it's folded up. Makes me feel more secure in my loneliness, because at least that way I don't feel sad when I notice the empty space next to me everytime I wake up. Fuckit, I just need sleep and a week off from everyone.