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Wow, I haven't really updated this thing in forever. Myspace has consummed my soul!! Poor LiveJournal. Hahaha.
So news... I met the most amazing boy. He's everything I wanted and nothing I expected... and he's fantastic. The way I met him is somewhat unconventional, but when have I ever been known to do something the normal way?? Normal is boring. Yeah, so, yay for Myspace. Hahaha. I had the best Spring Break this year going to Jacksonville and hanging out with Jason (my boy) and Ken. I should create a photo entry, but omg, I took so many pictures, it'd prolly be way too long. I'll prolly still make one anyways. It was the best three days ever. We had so much fun. We went and saw the Starting Line, the boys played ping pong, we played Trivial Pursuit and I kicked the boys' asses, I ate sushi for the first time (it was very interesting), and had the most hilarious boating trip ever. It was fantastic, and Jason is amazing, and life in that respect seems to be on the right track.
But my life isn't perfect. Who's is, really?? I guess there always has to be something. It makes the good times all that much better, I guess. So the flaw to my life right now?? I hate Tallahassee. I've been here for only 7 months or so and I'm already so ready to move away from here. And the reason for this... I have no one here except Jamie. All of Jamie's friends hate my guts and don't even want her to be friends with me. I could care less about Melissa, seeing as we've never been friends and have always been competeing with each other for Jamie, but it hurts me to the core that I get so much hate from Mike and Jared. I mean, they were once an extension of me, especially Mike who's like my twin seperated from birth. I used to spend so much time and effort on them, and I once loved them so completely, and I thought that they loved me too. And yet, all I get from them now is bitterness and hard words that completely break my heart. And I have absolutely no idea what I even did. I mean, yes, we fought, yes we basically had a falling out, yes we stopped talking to each other... but none of those things deserve the animosity I get from them. I mean, I would never sit around and say the things the things they say about me about them. And Jamie sat here telling me today about everything that's been happening lately and about how all of her friends think that she deserves better than me and that she shouldn't be friends with me anymore, and I just broke down and told her that I don't want to be here anymore. I really hate Tallahassee. I think I'm just going to drown myself in school so that I can graduate and get out of here as fast as humanly possible. Get out of here and move to Orlando, where I might actually feel like I belong.
Sigh. So yeah, that basically what's going on in my life. I'm going to Pittsburgh on my birthday and I'm super excited about that. I can't wait... I'm counting down the days. This year should be one of the best birthdays yet... I get to spend the first part with Jamie (FINALLY!!!) and then i get to jump into Jason's arms for the last part. Sigh. I can't wait. Start off a new year in my life the right way. =)
So, for the most part, my life seems to be falling into place. I've finally reached that point where I'm ready to grow up and move on to the next chapter in my life- I'm ready to be done with college and out there working in the real world, to take care of myself and stand on my own two feet. It's scary and exciting to think about. I've found the most amazing guy, I have a plan for my life, and I have the most amazing best friend in the whole wide world who loves me know matter what and who I would be absolutely nothing without. Life is good. I shouldn't care about the opinions of a few people who probably won't mean anything to me in a few years.
Haha- Positive Erin is back!!! =)
I think it's time that we accpet the past and embrace the fact its something we can't change. Let's look ahead and find the answers there...
♥
So news... I met the most amazing boy. He's everything I wanted and nothing I expected... and he's fantastic. The way I met him is somewhat unconventional, but when have I ever been known to do something the normal way?? Normal is boring. Yeah, so, yay for Myspace. Hahaha. I had the best Spring Break this year going to Jacksonville and hanging out with Jason (my boy) and Ken. I should create a photo entry, but omg, I took so many pictures, it'd prolly be way too long. I'll prolly still make one anyways. It was the best three days ever. We had so much fun. We went and saw the Starting Line, the boys played ping pong, we played Trivial Pursuit and I kicked the boys' asses, I ate sushi for the first time (it was very interesting), and had the most hilarious boating trip ever. It was fantastic, and Jason is amazing, and life in that respect seems to be on the right track.
But my life isn't perfect. Who's is, really?? I guess there always has to be something. It makes the good times all that much better, I guess. So the flaw to my life right now?? I hate Tallahassee. I've been here for only 7 months or so and I'm already so ready to move away from here. And the reason for this... I have no one here except Jamie. All of Jamie's friends hate my guts and don't even want her to be friends with me. I could care less about Melissa, seeing as we've never been friends and have always been competeing with each other for Jamie, but it hurts me to the core that I get so much hate from Mike and Jared. I mean, they were once an extension of me, especially Mike who's like my twin seperated from birth. I used to spend so much time and effort on them, and I once loved them so completely, and I thought that they loved me too. And yet, all I get from them now is bitterness and hard words that completely break my heart. And I have absolutely no idea what I even did. I mean, yes, we fought, yes we basically had a falling out, yes we stopped talking to each other... but none of those things deserve the animosity I get from them. I mean, I would never sit around and say the things the things they say about me about them. And Jamie sat here telling me today about everything that's been happening lately and about how all of her friends think that she deserves better than me and that she shouldn't be friends with me anymore, and I just broke down and told her that I don't want to be here anymore. I really hate Tallahassee. I think I'm just going to drown myself in school so that I can graduate and get out of here as fast as humanly possible. Get out of here and move to Orlando, where I might actually feel like I belong.
Sigh. So yeah, that basically what's going on in my life. I'm going to Pittsburgh on my birthday and I'm super excited about that. I can't wait... I'm counting down the days. This year should be one of the best birthdays yet... I get to spend the first part with Jamie (FINALLY!!!) and then i get to jump into Jason's arms for the last part. Sigh. I can't wait. Start off a new year in my life the right way. =)
So, for the most part, my life seems to be falling into place. I've finally reached that point where I'm ready to grow up and move on to the next chapter in my life- I'm ready to be done with college and out there working in the real world, to take care of myself and stand on my own two feet. It's scary and exciting to think about. I've found the most amazing guy, I have a plan for my life, and I have the most amazing best friend in the whole wide world who loves me know matter what and who I would be absolutely nothing without. Life is good. I shouldn't care about the opinions of a few people who probably won't mean anything to me in a few years.
Haha- Positive Erin is back!!! =)
I think it's time that we accpet the past and embrace the fact its something we can't change. Let's look ahead and find the answers there...
♥