in one valve, out the other
ok, lived through first day of the rest of my life and actually got some work done. 2 chapters revamped, a new song in the making. i couldn't sleep, my anxiety was too high. i moaned and screamed and hoped my neibors wouldn't call the police. i got up early today to go spend time with my neighbor and her daughter (ordinary things, he would say)and i played with Haneen and kadah and i had tea and donuts.
my head feels like it's been railroaded. patrick called demanding his security deposit back(like i have adamn thing to do with that and as far as i'm concerned, you lay your hands on me you forfeit that right). if he calls again, i am calling the police.
i've never been alone in my adult life and i am resisting the urge. it's almost habitual. like "here, you can take care of me". in a way i am afraid this will turn into an experiement gone horribly awry. not all people are supposed to be capable of being alone, but i know that i am not one of them.
my head weighs a ton. i'll be healthier now. i'll be an honest woman now. i'll forgive myself now. it's going to be okay.
argh! what will i wear to nikki's reading tonight????
my head feels like it's been railroaded. patrick called demanding his security deposit back(like i have adamn thing to do with that and as far as i'm concerned, you lay your hands on me you forfeit that right). if he calls again, i am calling the police.
i've never been alone in my adult life and i am resisting the urge. it's almost habitual. like "here, you can take care of me". in a way i am afraid this will turn into an experiement gone horribly awry. not all people are supposed to be capable of being alone, but i know that i am not one of them.
my head weighs a ton. i'll be healthier now. i'll be an honest woman now. i'll forgive myself now. it's going to be okay.
argh! what will i wear to nikki's reading tonight????