Bored
Well, I don't know anymore! I liked this one guy a lot and now we don't even talk anymore! I think it's because one of his friends liked me and told both of us a bunch of stuff that wasn't true and inevitable scared me to death. I don't understand why people have to do that. I was happy for one of the first times in my life. I don't know what to say to him anymore! I can't instant message him for fear that he won't answer back! I can't call him because that would be awkward. I can't do anything. I just wish that he would get to talk to him somehow, like he would call me or something! Thats just a hopeless dream though. I think I may have hurt him somehow and I know I didn't mean to. I feel so helpless and confused. Of course the Phantom of the Opera keeps running through my head: Wishing you were somehow here again, wishing you were somehow near, Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed, somehow you would be here, Wishing I could hear your voice again, knowing that I never would, Thinking of you, won't help me to do, all that you dreamed I could: Yeah I know thats pretty sad that that pops into my head, but it is my favorite movie. He used to make me smile and laugh and he was one of the sweetest guys. Sometimes he would just do something and I had to stop and stare because it was so incredibly amazing just to see what he was doing. He was awesome with kids and that made my heart melt, it was so cute to see him help a kid out.I don't know anymore, I just don't know! What can I do...honestly?