there goes my hero
So I haven't updated in ages but there's definitely things to update on now.
So.
The biggest, most recent change in my life is that Luke is gone now. It's only been a day so far, so ya know... so far not that big a difference right? Well it's still weird to think about though. I don't think I've ever gone more than a month without seeing him, let alone not being able to talk to him, so this is going to be really weird for me. Whether he realizes it or not, he's my best friend, and has been for 19 years. We get along better than most brothers and sisters do I think, sure sometimes we argue, but it's nothing major, and he's the only friend in my life that I've always ALWAYS known has had my back and that I could talk to about anything. We've been through everything together. So yeah this is going to be different being cut off like this, but I'll deal with it. It's nothing compared to what he will be going through. And I just have to say how incredibly proud I am of him. I should have told you all of this already, I know you won't be reading this for a long, long time. Being at the Naval Academy as a civilian was impressive. It's really hard to describe if you haven't experienced the whole atmosphere yourself. It's just like... wow. I've only had a glimpse in to what lies ahead for him, but I think it's going to be incredible, in good ways and in not-so-fun ways. But I think he's going to do great there. This is what he's wanted for so long, I think he's ready for it.
I was really worried about being emotional I-Day and losing it at the ceremony and when I had to say goodbye to Luke for the last time. But I did really well and I was surprised. I think after spending the entire day there, getting tours and such, that by the time I saw him I felt really confident that this is where he is supposed to be. I began to feel really proud and happy for him again, because it's so amazing that he's there. And looking at the other plebes, I just kept thinking, Luke can do this. I was worried because late on Luke's last night home Ken wanted to go for a drive and listen to music. Oh man... that got me. I was in the back luckily cuz I started crying. Just listening to music (Journey for Ken) and driving with Luke and Ken... windows down... it just felt so good, like summer's supposed to feel... and then I'm thinking, this is it, we're never going to be like this again. "I'm gonna stay 18 forever, so we can stay like this forever." Yeah... but now I'm better now. I was the last one to say bye to Luke, after my cousin Nate, then my emotional parents who were trying not to cry. I told my mom not to make him cry, because he was doing a good job of staying pretty upbeat. So then I just hugged him hard and said BYE LUKE DON'T BE SAD!! apparently too loudly cuz he covered my mouth... I forgot I wasn't supposed to be drawing attention to him. Oh yeah and Ken I told him not to worry, that I would comfort you and keep you company this summer haha in case I forget to tell you later.
So now on to the rest of my summer. I have a list of things I really want to accomplish, so now that things have calmed down around my house I'm going to try to start in on that (shut up Ken, I'm going to do them). But right now... I'm exhausted, it's been a long week.
So.
The biggest, most recent change in my life is that Luke is gone now. It's only been a day so far, so ya know... so far not that big a difference right? Well it's still weird to think about though. I don't think I've ever gone more than a month without seeing him, let alone not being able to talk to him, so this is going to be really weird for me. Whether he realizes it or not, he's my best friend, and has been for 19 years. We get along better than most brothers and sisters do I think, sure sometimes we argue, but it's nothing major, and he's the only friend in my life that I've always ALWAYS known has had my back and that I could talk to about anything. We've been through everything together. So yeah this is going to be different being cut off like this, but I'll deal with it. It's nothing compared to what he will be going through. And I just have to say how incredibly proud I am of him. I should have told you all of this already, I know you won't be reading this for a long, long time. Being at the Naval Academy as a civilian was impressive. It's really hard to describe if you haven't experienced the whole atmosphere yourself. It's just like... wow. I've only had a glimpse in to what lies ahead for him, but I think it's going to be incredible, in good ways and in not-so-fun ways. But I think he's going to do great there. This is what he's wanted for so long, I think he's ready for it.
I was really worried about being emotional I-Day and losing it at the ceremony and when I had to say goodbye to Luke for the last time. But I did really well and I was surprised. I think after spending the entire day there, getting tours and such, that by the time I saw him I felt really confident that this is where he is supposed to be. I began to feel really proud and happy for him again, because it's so amazing that he's there. And looking at the other plebes, I just kept thinking, Luke can do this. I was worried because late on Luke's last night home Ken wanted to go for a drive and listen to music. Oh man... that got me. I was in the back luckily cuz I started crying. Just listening to music (Journey for Ken) and driving with Luke and Ken... windows down... it just felt so good, like summer's supposed to feel... and then I'm thinking, this is it, we're never going to be like this again. "I'm gonna stay 18 forever, so we can stay like this forever." Yeah... but now I'm better now. I was the last one to say bye to Luke, after my cousin Nate, then my emotional parents who were trying not to cry. I told my mom not to make him cry, because he was doing a good job of staying pretty upbeat. So then I just hugged him hard and said BYE LUKE DON'T BE SAD!! apparently too loudly cuz he covered my mouth... I forgot I wasn't supposed to be drawing attention to him. Oh yeah and Ken I told him not to worry, that I would comfort you and keep you company this summer haha in case I forget to tell you later.
So now on to the rest of my summer. I have a list of things I really want to accomplish, so now that things have calmed down around my house I'm going to try to start in on that (shut up Ken, I'm going to do them). But right now... I'm exhausted, it's been a long week.