Keeping My Head Above Water
I have been feeling very overwhelmed as of late. Although I had the week off and had some wonderful girl time with one of my very best friends, Ashley, last night I felt as if the world was crashing down on me and I couldn't stop it. I was beginning to feel suffocated. I love my husband dearly but we work very differently and sometimes it can cause me to have stress. I think that's what this is all about.
Since we moved into this house it feels that everything has to be done RIGHT NOW! That's very much his nature and something that, although frustrates me at times, I can't change about him. He becomes very stressed out if he can not finish a project or if he doesn't think he has enough time to do something. It's all he can focus on; it consumes him. Currently, our living room is a construction zone and although I don't like it, it stresses him out much more.
This week I feel as if he's bitten off more than he can chew. He is very ambitious and although I admire this I also, at times, am a bit more of a realist. He has plans to finish our living room this weekend, which means we have to prime all the walls, paint the moulding, and then paint the walls. I spackled all the holes a second time last night so before we do anything we have to sand those down.
He also thought that we would be able to make Bigos this weekend. Bigos is a delicious Polish meal that takes about 8 hours to make. I'm not quite sure what he was thinking but I made the executive decision last night to freeze all the meat and make it another time.
The thing that really has given me a headache this morning is the fact that he called someone to get an estimate on our gas conversion that we have to do at some point. This guy was supposed to come at 8am. I can't figure out, for the life of me, why he would schedule something for 8am when he didn't even get home last night till after midnight! We didn't go to bed till 1:30. It's not like he doesn't know what time his train gets in.
I have no problem with the fact that he wants to get all this done. In fact it's very helpful but having someone come at 8am means that I will be woken up as well. This is the 4th person who has come to give us an estimate on the gas conversion.
I feel as if Kamil is holding a plate of very delicate things and is stuffing as many things on that plate as possible. It's as if I'm standing under him trying to catch the things as they fall off the plate because he's piled it so high. i really respect his ambition and love him for it but his intensity is making me feel as if I can't breathe. I would say I need a vacation but I was on vacation this week and I only feel more stressed.
I think the solution is going to be to suck it up until the living room is finished and until the tree that fell over in our yard and broke our fence is gone. Once those two things are fixed I think he might be able to relax. Until then, I have a feeling he is going to be overwhelmed and therefore I will be as well.
Ooh the life of a homeowner!
Since we moved into this house it feels that everything has to be done RIGHT NOW! That's very much his nature and something that, although frustrates me at times, I can't change about him. He becomes very stressed out if he can not finish a project or if he doesn't think he has enough time to do something. It's all he can focus on; it consumes him. Currently, our living room is a construction zone and although I don't like it, it stresses him out much more.
This week I feel as if he's bitten off more than he can chew. He is very ambitious and although I admire this I also, at times, am a bit more of a realist. He has plans to finish our living room this weekend, which means we have to prime all the walls, paint the moulding, and then paint the walls. I spackled all the holes a second time last night so before we do anything we have to sand those down.
He also thought that we would be able to make Bigos this weekend. Bigos is a delicious Polish meal that takes about 8 hours to make. I'm not quite sure what he was thinking but I made the executive decision last night to freeze all the meat and make it another time.
The thing that really has given me a headache this morning is the fact that he called someone to get an estimate on our gas conversion that we have to do at some point. This guy was supposed to come at 8am. I can't figure out, for the life of me, why he would schedule something for 8am when he didn't even get home last night till after midnight! We didn't go to bed till 1:30. It's not like he doesn't know what time his train gets in.
I have no problem with the fact that he wants to get all this done. In fact it's very helpful but having someone come at 8am means that I will be woken up as well. This is the 4th person who has come to give us an estimate on the gas conversion.
I feel as if Kamil is holding a plate of very delicate things and is stuffing as many things on that plate as possible. It's as if I'm standing under him trying to catch the things as they fall off the plate because he's piled it so high. i really respect his ambition and love him for it but his intensity is making me feel as if I can't breathe. I would say I need a vacation but I was on vacation this week and I only feel more stressed.
I think the solution is going to be to suck it up until the living room is finished and until the tree that fell over in our yard and broke our fence is gone. Once those two things are fixed I think he might be able to relax. Until then, I have a feeling he is going to be overwhelmed and therefore I will be as well.
Ooh the life of a homeowner!