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hello journal.
i am in orlando now, post-aveda graduation (finally.) and post-a few new life lessons.
summing up my aveda experience is difficult to do. i'm not exactly sure how to peg it- i went through so many changes that i did not want to face and i think the pain and shock almost blurred the whole thing. or maybe it was just that i spent so much time doing the same thing that the days sort of blended together and became insignificant and uneventful to me? who knows. i learned from the people that i met, mostly. julie newton. insecure, loving, silly, damaged. staci churchill. unaware of herself, beautiful, and ignorant. i tried to help each of them find themselves. i learned that you cannot help people find themselves, especially by pointing out thier flaws. i learned from julie that i need to be more sensitive to others feelings. i am learning that from my mother right now. i am not sure at what point i became so angry, but i did... i think what i see in myself i attack in others because i dont want to deal with it. i need to work on that. staci taught me that no amount of beauty can bring you true, honest happiness. only self assurance can. she seeks value through others eyes. i think that julie and staci are ultimately a symbol of my biggest struggle. self-worth. rambling?
i am going to start working at Salon Salon. thursday-sat this week, 2-8, assissting. someone who just got their licence? more details on this sketchy job as it progresses.
considering donating my eggs for $6,000. uuhh. yeah. that is correct, ladies, visit www.eggdonor.com. do it. if you are comfortable with the fact that your offspring will roam the earth completely unaware of the physical/psychological makeup of their biological mother. i say fuck it. im just flushing it down the toilet otherwise. the couple who chooses to do this are the true parents. however, as my mom pointed out to me today, i should be thinking about this...oohh. now for the fun stuff, livejournal.
tom jones =)
(say anything-skinny mean man)
psycho-ex girlfriend drama aside, he is, without a doubt, entirely pleasant. i am nervous around him, at times, but i'm trying not to let that get the best of me. he's going to colorado with her december 15. whaaa? we'll see about that. we'll see about all of this. i like him. i do i do i do. i didnt think i did. but ooohh. i dooo.
i am in orlando now, post-aveda graduation (finally.) and post-a few new life lessons.
summing up my aveda experience is difficult to do. i'm not exactly sure how to peg it- i went through so many changes that i did not want to face and i think the pain and shock almost blurred the whole thing. or maybe it was just that i spent so much time doing the same thing that the days sort of blended together and became insignificant and uneventful to me? who knows. i learned from the people that i met, mostly. julie newton. insecure, loving, silly, damaged. staci churchill. unaware of herself, beautiful, and ignorant. i tried to help each of them find themselves. i learned that you cannot help people find themselves, especially by pointing out thier flaws. i learned from julie that i need to be more sensitive to others feelings. i am learning that from my mother right now. i am not sure at what point i became so angry, but i did... i think what i see in myself i attack in others because i dont want to deal with it. i need to work on that. staci taught me that no amount of beauty can bring you true, honest happiness. only self assurance can. she seeks value through others eyes. i think that julie and staci are ultimately a symbol of my biggest struggle. self-worth. rambling?
i am going to start working at Salon Salon. thursday-sat this week, 2-8, assissting. someone who just got their licence? more details on this sketchy job as it progresses.
considering donating my eggs for $6,000. uuhh. yeah. that is correct, ladies, visit www.eggdonor.com. do it. if you are comfortable with the fact that your offspring will roam the earth completely unaware of the physical/psychological makeup of their biological mother. i say fuck it. im just flushing it down the toilet otherwise. the couple who chooses to do this are the true parents. however, as my mom pointed out to me today, i should be thinking about this...oohh. now for the fun stuff, livejournal.
tom jones =)
(say anything-skinny mean man)
psycho-ex girlfriend drama aside, he is, without a doubt, entirely pleasant. i am nervous around him, at times, but i'm trying not to let that get the best of me. he's going to colorado with her december 15. whaaa? we'll see about that. we'll see about all of this. i like him. i do i do i do. i didnt think i did. but ooohh. i dooo.