dannng
goddd. i am so sorry i did this again. why am i surprised that he doesnt even care anymore? i keep running back to the one person who needed me most and loved me unconditionally until they just grew older and learned to live without me. he loves me, but can live without me. when did i become this person? was this always who i am and was i just trying to ignore the fact that im not that independent? do i say that i dont need people and i dont care what people think because subconciously thats all that matters to me? when did i become so insecure?!
ive been thinking alot about college lately...and i decided when i watched all the seniors doing their audition prep that i dont want to go to an arts college. it would be hell to put myself through that. i dont enjoy studying MT enough to make it my life. i will stilll audition for shows and i will ALWAYS be living in NY but no way will i go to college for mt. im thinking im going to do cosmetology.
well. this morning was definitly an eventful one. woke up at 5AM, went to walmart, then darralann's, picked off brittany and grace's decorations off her car so they wouldnt ruin the paint job(by the way--thanks for lying, bitches! ours was muchmuch hotter) decorated darras car, done by 6:30, ate hamburgers and drank coffee(???ew) at sonic's. we were extreemeelyy WIRED by the time we got to gk--we were honking and yelling and laughing and i even made kristy pee a little. i spilled coffee ALL OVERRR my beautiful sweatpants. ahhh good morning. definitly wont forget it. i think we pissed alot of people off. ohwell!!!
im off to anticipate PROJECT RUNWAY<33333
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