Listen To Your Heart (2/11)
Story title: Listen To Your Heart
Summary: What happens when Will leaves JJ, and Emily is there to help her? Eventual JJ/Emily
Pairing: Emily/JJ
Rating: PG (I think? I have no idea how these ratings work, but there's no adult content or anything)
Disclaimer: Criminal Minds does not belong to me.
A/N 1: English is not my first language (not even my second, actually) so there probably will be some mistakes. Feel free to point them out to me, so I can improve.
A/N 2: I have the complete story on my computer, so if anyone is interested, I can guarantee regular updates (probably every other day or so). Comments are very much appreciated!
Chapter 2
The next day, Emily woke up to the sound of someone throwing up. She entered the bathroom and found JJ sitting on her knees, practically hugging the toilet. She immediately squatted down next to her, held up her hair and rubbed soothing circles on her back.
“JJ, are you all right?” When JJ didn’t answer, she asked further, “Can I get you anything? Something for the nausea maybe?”
When JJ felt like she could sit up without her dinner coming back out, she let the toilet go and sat against the bathroom wall. Emily handed her a glass of water to get rid of the taste of vomit.
“Well, can I get you anything?” she tried again.
“No, that’s okay. It won’t help for this kind of nausea anyway,” JJ answered with a half-hearted smile.
“What do you mean ‘this kind of nausea’? I don’t understand. Unless… JJ, are you pregnant?”
When JJ nodded, Emily’s face became one big smile. “Really? Oh my God, JJ, that’s fantastic. Come here.” With that she pulled JJ in for a hug. When she didn’t feel her respond, she stepped back and asked, “You are happy about it, right?”
“Yeah, I am. It’s just…” She trailed off, and instead of finishing the sentence, she got up and left the bathroom.
When Emily got back in the room seconds later, she found JJ crying on the bed. She knew better than continue asking questions, so she sat down next to JJ, and pulled her close. JJ snuggled in the crook of Emily’s neck, while she let all of her emotions out. When the sobs began to stop, Emily looked at her intently, trying to find some answers in her clear blue eyes.
“Does Will know, JJ?” she finally asked after five minutes of silence.
“Oh, he knows,” JJ answered, her voice thick with anger. She remained silent after that, but Emily didn’t ask further. She knew the blonde needed this silence, to clear her head a bit. JJ thought back to the day she told Will.
JJ sat at her desk, absent-mindedly. She didn’t even see Emily approaching her office, so she was a bit startled when Emily started speaking.
“Hey, everyone is waiting.”
“You should go,” JJ answered, not really wanting to spend more time with her team right now.
“Kerie’s gonna be okay,” Emily said, thinking JJ was still worried about the woman they just saved.
“I know.
“Okay, then what is it? ‘Cause you’ve been a little… off.”
“Really, I’m just, I’m tired.”
“Okay, well, go home. Get some sleep.” And with that Emily left. JJ looked around to see if anyone else was going to come into her office before taking out a piece of paper out of her desk drawer. She looked at the paper that was going to change her life drastically for a moment, before picking up her cell phone and calling Will.
“Hey, it’s me. You got a minute?... Yeah I’m fine, I’m fine. We just really need to talk. … I’m pregnant.”
She could hear him catch his breath when she said that, and then he told her he was really happy about it. And she believed him. Why wouldn’t she?
“When I told him about it, he seemed happy. But I told him over the phone, so I couldn’t see his reaction. Apparently, he wasn’t so happy about it as I thought, because a week later I received a ‘special delivery’. He had sent all of my stuff that was at his place back with a letter. He wrote that he never had planned for us to become so serious, and that he wasn’t ready to be a dad. He even included a form to decline his parental rights.”
“That son of a bitch! I’m gonna kill him!”
“No, you’re not.” JJ answered calmly. Emily looked at her, puzzled. “I’m going to beat you to it,” JJ added with a smile.
“Well, it’s good to see you smile again, but seriously, how could he do that to you? You were such a good couple.”
“Actually, we weren’t. I liked him, I really did, but I wasn’t as in love with him as I thought I was, as I should be.”
“So how come you’re so devastated he left you? If you weren’t really in love with him-” she stopped talking when she saw JJ’s face darken again. Way to go, Prentiss. Of course she’s upset about the father of her child leaving her.
“It’s not him I’m upset about, but…” she didn’t continue, as she couldn’t find the right words. Then she just blurted out, “I’m gonna be a single mom, Emily. I can’t be a single mom, I can’t go through all that alone. Finding baby stuff, giving birth, raising him. What about work, we’re away most of the time, what will I do then?” JJ started to ramble.
“JJ, listen to me. JJ!” Emily tried to calm her, but JJ wouldn’t listen, she just kept on rambling.
“My parents live so far away, they can’t help me. And my neighbors, they would sure love to help the weird single mom lady that scared her boyfriend away. I’m gonna be all alone in this, and-”
“Jennifer!”
At the sound of her full name, JJ finally stopped her ramble.
“You won’t be alone in this. I’m going to help you, and so is the rest of the team when you tell them. Okay?” She waited until she saw JJ nod. “Good. Now you’re a smart, strong, independent woman, and you can do this. And I’m gonna be there every step of the way with you, so you’re not alone.”
“Thank you,” JJ answered when the lump in her throat started to disappear. “I think I needed to hear that.”
“Are you feeling better now? How’s the nausea?” Emily asked.
“Better. It always passes fairly quickly.”
“Good. Are you up for some breakfast? I think the guys are already downstairs, and they’ll probably start wondering where we are.”
JJ glanced at her watch, and saw that it was already past 10 a.m. She couldn’t believe she hadn’t noticed the time flying by, but then again, her mind was pretty pre-occupied.
“Sounds good to me. But let me get decent first, I’m sure the guys would love to see me like this,” she said as she realized she was still in her sleeping clothes. “And you’re looking completely breakfast-proof as well, in those sexy shorts,” she added teasingly. Emily looked down at her clothes, and realized that she was also still in her sleeping clothes. She looked at JJ, who was standing in an old, faded college shirt and ridiculously short shorts, and her thoughts went to all kinds of inappropriate places before she could shake them off. Then she looked at herself, in her old Yale shirt and slightly longer sleeping shorts, and started laughing.
“Well, I can think of someone who wouldn’t mind seeing us like this, but maybe it’s not a very good idea to stimulate his already one-track mind,” she said, thinking about the reaction Morgan would give if he saw them like that. But it was mostly a way to keep her own mind from wandering, although it didn’t really work. She thinks I look sexy? She shook off her thoughts, and stepped into the bathroom.
They both got ready, and headed downstairs for breakfast. Before they entered the restaurant, Emily stopped JJ and looked at her.
“Are you going to tell them?” she asked.
“Not yet. It’s not that I don’t want them to know, I just don’t think I could handle telling them if something went wrong. A lot can happen during the first couple of months, and with all that has happened with Will and everything…”
“Okay, I understand, but you’ll have to tell them at some point. They probably already know something is going on, so I’m guessing they’ll be worried about you.”
“I know. I have an appointment with my doctor in three weeks. If everything looks good, I’ll tell them.”
“Fair enough. Now, let’s go feed you and this peanut.”
JJ laughed at the name Emily gave her child. She could feel the burden that was sitting on her shoulder slowly falling off, knowing Emily would be there to help her.
Part 3