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well i got kiked out before january and now im on the search of a place to live. i have currently been sleeping in my car and have been dealing with the pressures of paying bills such as insurance, cell phone, gas, etc.. if you or someone you know has a place that they would like to rent out, say a backhouse or room for a couple hundred a month tht would really help me out. luckily i have this job at big lots to help me pay my bills and other necesitys of life. no matter what happens in my life i will always keep going to school. i just started my 3rd semester and i have no intention on giving up now. im intending to study a lil bit of everything actually from law to being a veterinarian. i find my self crying out of no where at times. waking up in the middle of the night in tears. sometimes when there is no destination for you to go its a very scary feeling. knowing there isnt a place where you belong. a home. it scares the shit out of me sometimes to where i cant bear to continue. what drives to deal with these things from day to day i have no clue. i feel as if something has control over me to keep on keepin on. i like to beleive there is someone watching. or something. guiding me to my next destination that will benefit me for the better. in the past 2 weeks i have cried more times then in my entire life.