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I sit up night for hours every night watching time revolve around me, and I wonder what is wrong with me. I feel like I have five voices in my head and at any given time, each occupied with a different thought. At night I sit up at my desk usually with notebooks,3 open at any given time with some project or idea being worked on, two sketch pads one 11X9 one 22X10 each with a rough outline for a painting idea, the easel with some painting glaring at me from across the room with canvas mocking me naked. My laptop open next to my 19in flat panel glowing, the tv on some random news channel PIP on cartoon network or comedy central. This is what I do when normal people sleep, I have tried everything to sleep: drugs, both prescription and recreational, exercise, diet, quitting this or that bad habit, trying different work shifts, different work fields{ie. stress levels}, from IT consulting to running fiber optics, different lifestyles{straightedge, druggie, ect.} and every morning ,I call the time blue then sun isn't quite up yet I go liedown for an hour or two, then getup and go to school, then work. Nothing satisfies me either, never enough money, never enough{insert anything here} I want to experience all
Does this make me greedy or bored??
Does this make me greedy or bored??