Have Posted... Not Sure What to Talk About...
Well, I haven't posted since finding out my mom's cancer is back. Don't know what to talk about other then that it isn't good. She is loosing the battle and loosing it fast. They say it could be any day now or could last for months. From when I talk to her, it's not months, maybe only weeks. I am going to look into taking off in the next couple of days or within the week. I want to be there for her when she passes. I want her to know that her baby boy is there, that everything is okay. She has been getting upset, because she can't hardly do anything herself. She had a fall in the bathroom this past weekend and got lucky she didn't hit her head or break a bone, she just wanted to be able to go to the bathroom without bothering anyone in the middle of the night.
Now she is just loosing her train of thought, she forgets what she wants to talk about and is in alot of pain all the time. This has been something I never wanted to see my parent to ever go through. My father lost his father to cancer when I was 20, now I am loosing my mother. My father is still around, but it's not the same. We have never had a good relationship and it's been even less of one since I moved to Seattle. I actually talk more to my Step Father then my own father, now I am loosing my best friend. My mother knew everything about me, encouraged me to do better with my life, even when things were not looking good or moving along well enough to think it was anything better.
To those who know me, those who have been around me, I talk about my mother alot. She is someone I will miss, and someone who I wish many of my friends could meet.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, send encouragements because I don't know what to do.... I feel so lost right now, and will be really lost when she passes. Yet, I plan on moving forward and really working hard on succeeding where I haven't much in the past. Many of my thoughts and ideas will be carried on, and I am working on keeping her alive very much for my Nieces and Nephews who will never get to truly grow old with her.
Boy am I rambling, oh well... I guess I need to right now.
HUGS to veryone.
Now she is just loosing her train of thought, she forgets what she wants to talk about and is in alot of pain all the time. This has been something I never wanted to see my parent to ever go through. My father lost his father to cancer when I was 20, now I am loosing my mother. My father is still around, but it's not the same. We have never had a good relationship and it's been even less of one since I moved to Seattle. I actually talk more to my Step Father then my own father, now I am loosing my best friend. My mother knew everything about me, encouraged me to do better with my life, even when things were not looking good or moving along well enough to think it was anything better.
To those who know me, those who have been around me, I talk about my mother alot. She is someone I will miss, and someone who I wish many of my friends could meet.
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, send encouragements because I don't know what to do.... I feel so lost right now, and will be really lost when she passes. Yet, I plan on moving forward and really working hard on succeeding where I haven't much in the past. Many of my thoughts and ideas will be carried on, and I am working on keeping her alive very much for my Nieces and Nephews who will never get to truly grow old with her.
Boy am I rambling, oh well... I guess I need to right now.
HUGS to veryone.