Bowling!
Lately bowling hasn't been too great, and I know I'm a big contrbution to making it not be so great. So this is what I have to say to everyone on the bowling team:
I'm sorry if you guys think that I don't care about the team and that I don't try. The truth is that I really do care and that I really am trying. When I get pissed I don't mean to take it out on you guys, yes I know I have a few times and I'm really sorry, and I wish I hadn't done that. I love all of you to death. I never what to hurt you guys or anything like that. I care about you guys more than I care about myself or my family. You guys are my family at the moment. I hate all this drama that we have, I promise we'll get through this no matter what I have to do. It kills me that we're all fighting or disagreeing.
I know that I broke the food rule, I really regret breaking it, if I knew that the whole meeting and all the shit that has happened since was going to happen, I wouldn't have ate that freaking cheeseburger. We definitely needed to have the meeting, sooner or later, and I agree that we all need to respect each other and Keogh. Yes, the food rule is stupid and I may not have followed it in the beginning of the season. But when we go back, I'm going to start following it. Also we all need to keep calm when we screw up. The way team is now, one person gets pissed and everyone else does too. When we lose by a fee pins, it's not just one person's fault, it's actually no one's fault. Not one person should blame themselves because its not right, as long as we all tried our hardest, it doesn't matter. If it makes you guys feel any better and causes less stress on you guys, I'll take all the blame for all of the really close loses, whether or not I'm playing varsity or not. Don't worry I'm ok with it, because I don't want to see you guys beating yourselves up because of the close loses.
~ Jackie - Your like a sister to me. I really don't know what I would do or where I would be if I didn't have you as a friend. I'm really sorry about the fight and everything else that has happened lately, I take full blame for everything.
~ Niki - I'm sorry you think that I don't try, I really do but sometimes I just can't concentrate or focus, and I think you're right sometimes I do force the ball, I should listen to you more often.
~ Lys - I'm just sorry.
~ Kara - I'm glad we are kinda starting to be on good terms with each other again. And I'm sorry too.
~ Erin - I'm sorry I'm causing all this drama on the team and that you are getting sucked into it all.
~ Sam - I'm sorry I didn't let you keep singing that one day.
~ Ash - I'm sorry I'm causing all this drama on the team and that you are getting sucked into it all.
Guys I'm really sorry, I wish I could turn back time and fix it so that none of this ever happened. I'd do anything to just make all the drama and everything else go away, so that we aren't agruing or disagreeing. I'm so sorry.
P.S. I'm also not going to leave the pit anymore.
<3 Chrissy