What Can Ya Do?
Okay, so it appears that a constant throughout the past few years has been the complaint from my beast friends that I have a tendency to be overdramatic and it has a tendency to be annoying. Well, the truth is, I don't have a tendency to be overdramatic. I AM overdramatic. I feel, think, and speak extremes, and I always have. This is not an aspect of my personality, it IS my personality. I'm not thrilled with that fact, as it does have some very negative consequences for my social life, however, I can't change. And by "can't," I mean that I cannot will it. If I mellow, if I intensify, it will be as a result of years of experience and the resolution of inner conflicts (a.k.a. growing up). Anyone who cannot accept this and finds that the annoyance of my behavior overshadows whatever positive things I bring to a relationship is welcome to discontinue acquaintance with me at any time. Where this might seem callous and stubborn to some readers, it is actually quite a rational conclusion when carefully looked at both objectively and subjectively. Life is a play. It seems that the plot remains the same throughout its run, however the same characters are played by different actors as the show is performed throughout the years. Bottom line: I will always have friends, but who they will be will change over time. And the very good ones will stick around far longer due to popular demand. So, I have come to the conclusion that I am who I am. I am a great person with a lot to offer, but I am not without my faults (the definition of which depend on who you're asking--one man's fault is another's desirable attribute). Take the big picture, the good and the bad, or leave the whole thing. I will not supress and repress myself for the company of those who do not love me enough to let my soul grow at the pace nature has determined. I may act crazy, but still I believe in me, and I have a lot of love to give to those patient enough to receive it.
P.S. Thanks to Erik Sippel, Vladimir Kerkez, Steven David, Caitlin Roll, Ashley Buerkett, Brianna Lamb, Ashley Taylor, Heath Lenoble, and Dinah Schierer, among many others--past and present--for just being good friends and convincing me of my worth, for to have people of your caliber opting to be my friend, I can't possibly be too bad.
And thanks to everyone else, for making me stronger.
P.S. Thanks to Erik Sippel, Vladimir Kerkez, Steven David, Caitlin Roll, Ashley Buerkett, Brianna Lamb, Ashley Taylor, Heath Lenoble, and Dinah Schierer, among many others--past and present--for just being good friends and convincing me of my worth, for to have people of your caliber opting to be my friend, I can't possibly be too bad.
And thanks to everyone else, for making me stronger.