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hey there everyone!! its been a while since i've updated. Things has been very hard in my life lately. just started school last week, which sucks because i transferred to a different campus closer to home cause my cocoa campus didnt have the classes i was going to take. so i hardly know anyone there. no friends there and its hard. my boyfriend goes to the cocoa campus and all the other people there i know. but i will sometimes visit cocoa campus. all i do is go to a computer lab and take courses that i have to take and turn it in the date im suppose to turn it in. but the worst part, i dont have a teacher giving a lecture, or having activities or any challanges going on in that class. i just have to serve 12 hours a week. it SUCKS!
today i lost a good friend. J and i have been friends for almost a year this coming wed, and we no longer want to talk to eachother. when we talk online we always have something to argue about, but when we hang out person to person everything is great. and im sorry that cant happen with him anymore. i guess we are not made for eachother to be friends.
my mother went to Connecticut last week to go to court with my brother because my brother was in jail for 3 months, including his birthday, halloween, thanksgiving, christmas and new years. he was bailed out. then my mom came home late sat morning. around 10am she got terrible news. i dont want to share it. i broke down crying in the corner of my room, with my boyfriend holding me. i keep thinking how he's never going to have a good life, never going to have a girlfriend, have a family, anything that he has dreamed of he's not gonna have it. no he didnt die. when i went to see my dad for christmas, he had old videos from when i was 4 years old, my sister, mom, brother and my dad, basically my whole family. and it came across with my brother at camp, it was great, listening to his young voice, the smallest one in the family. when he was bailed out of jail, he lost 50lbs. he could have died in there. they were not giving his medication that he was suppose to recieve, and it was life/death situation. after he got out of jail, my mom had to take him to the doctors, get his medication. he got everything he wanted after he got out, and there he has to go screw it up again. it breaks my heart talking about it, thinking about it, whatever.
that's pretty much it. and im not home very often anymore. which is good lol. hope this is good enough for everyone to know what's going on with me and it helped me a little expressing it out.
today i lost a good friend. J and i have been friends for almost a year this coming wed, and we no longer want to talk to eachother. when we talk online we always have something to argue about, but when we hang out person to person everything is great. and im sorry that cant happen with him anymore. i guess we are not made for eachother to be friends.
my mother went to Connecticut last week to go to court with my brother because my brother was in jail for 3 months, including his birthday, halloween, thanksgiving, christmas and new years. he was bailed out. then my mom came home late sat morning. around 10am she got terrible news. i dont want to share it. i broke down crying in the corner of my room, with my boyfriend holding me. i keep thinking how he's never going to have a good life, never going to have a girlfriend, have a family, anything that he has dreamed of he's not gonna have it. no he didnt die. when i went to see my dad for christmas, he had old videos from when i was 4 years old, my sister, mom, brother and my dad, basically my whole family. and it came across with my brother at camp, it was great, listening to his young voice, the smallest one in the family. when he was bailed out of jail, he lost 50lbs. he could have died in there. they were not giving his medication that he was suppose to recieve, and it was life/death situation. after he got out of jail, my mom had to take him to the doctors, get his medication. he got everything he wanted after he got out, and there he has to go screw it up again. it breaks my heart talking about it, thinking about it, whatever.
that's pretty much it. and im not home very often anymore. which is good lol. hope this is good enough for everyone to know what's going on with me and it helped me a little expressing it out.