a downpour of sweat
i'm sitting in carolyn's living room alone, high. i'm supposed to be cleaning up right now, she's gone to cover someone's shift at the den. i'm listening to bright eyes and i don't exactly know how i feel. its my birthday and i feel like i've wasted a year.
this year was just really bad for me. 21 was not a good time. i'm 22 now and i'm really sad that i'm no longer a kid, even if someone called me a kid, it would be inappropriate. i'm not sad because i'm becoming an adult, i'm sad that i wasted another year.
the first half of my year i had bladder issues. then i failed a class last semester, i not passed one this semester. i didn't go to switzerland over the summer nor to france for the year. i've been on a lot of drugs lately and have become really slutty. i've had 4 failed relationships in the last 2 months!!
well i guess the good news is that i can begin again and do it right this time. i really need to focus on school and moderation. this sounds like a new years resolution doesn't it? well its almost the new year, so i guess this is mine.
ALSO, i think that the school should give us more time between the holidays and finals!!! i mean, i really don't have anytime to shop and i haven't. its already my birthday and old saint nick is knocking. they need to give us more time to do christmas shopping!! this is america dammit!!!
this year was just really bad for me. 21 was not a good time. i'm 22 now and i'm really sad that i'm no longer a kid, even if someone called me a kid, it would be inappropriate. i'm not sad because i'm becoming an adult, i'm sad that i wasted another year.
the first half of my year i had bladder issues. then i failed a class last semester, i not passed one this semester. i didn't go to switzerland over the summer nor to france for the year. i've been on a lot of drugs lately and have become really slutty. i've had 4 failed relationships in the last 2 months!!
well i guess the good news is that i can begin again and do it right this time. i really need to focus on school and moderation. this sounds like a new years resolution doesn't it? well its almost the new year, so i guess this is mine.
ALSO, i think that the school should give us more time between the holidays and finals!!! i mean, i really don't have anytime to shop and i haven't. its already my birthday and old saint nick is knocking. they need to give us more time to do christmas shopping!! this is america dammit!!!