Isn't it ironic?
So a month to the day after that last unpleasant entry, I find myself closing the book on the ex-bf yet again, who in this journal shall heretofore be known by the acronym Sicko (selfish, insecure, crazy, kawk-obsessed). Over the course of the last month, we tried to set things right between us, but of course that's impossible when one person's heart just isn't in it, as I should've realized from the get-go. I've always been a sucker for second, third, and fourth chances (and then some) so I have no one but myself to blame for giving Sicko what is, I believe, a sixth chance? Some people just can't change, or at least, not quickly enough to make enough of a difference. It's maddening, because we sync up so perfectly in so many ways, but we're worlds apart when it comes to how we treat each other and what a committed relationship means to each of us.
Ah well, it's the next guy's problem now, heh.
And besides which, there've been much happier things to dwell upon lately in life, such as meeting a lad who is practically the polar opposite of Sicko. He's been a bright shiny beacon of happiness and stability and I'm enthusiastic about what may come to be between us. ^_^
There was also the trip to the redwoods in California, which was great to be a part of. It'd been way too long since I'd last gone camping, and even longer still since I'd been to the CA coast, so it was awesome to be able to do both in one trip. Banana slugs, hikes through Ladybird Johnson's Grove, late-night wanderings through the campground, crazy coastal highway driving, and fun at the beach made for a thoroughly lovely trip. This is my beachy rendition of Mordor from Lord of the Rings, complete with Mount Doom, The Black Gate, and the ever-watchful Eye of Sauron. Ohh how I love being a nerd, hehe.
Yesterday the girls and I volunteered at the Portland International Beerfest, basically working three hours for free beer and a t-shirt, and it was *so* worth it, lol. Knowing next to nothing about beer and having never poured a drop of it either didn't stop me from putting on a pretty good show for the Scottish brewer's tent I was assigned to. It was a distinctly Portlandish experience, and we plan to do it again in a few weeks at the Oregon Brewer's Festival.
And tonight we're going to see Order of the Phoenix, which I've got mixed feelings about but am still totally excited for. My mixed feelings stem from the craptastic performance Michael Gambon has given playing Dumbledore in the last three movies and the collective belief that Imelda Staunton didn't give a terribly fitting go at playing Dolores Umbridge. Granted they're only two characters, but this is Harry Potter man, this is serious stuff, lol.
Serious stuff is what I want less of in life right now; I told myself I wasn't ever going to let Sicko deeply hurt me again as he did when I wrote that last entry and I'm stickin to that! It's summer, every day is gloriously beautiful! Now is the time for smiles and sunshine, for "out with the old, in with the new!", for ditching destructive douchebags and embracing ebullient energy and appreciating awkward alliteration! To go uber-geeky and quote Auron, "This is *my* story". ^_^
Ah well, it's the next guy's problem now, heh.
And besides which, there've been much happier things to dwell upon lately in life, such as meeting a lad who is practically the polar opposite of Sicko. He's been a bright shiny beacon of happiness and stability and I'm enthusiastic about what may come to be between us. ^_^
There was also the trip to the redwoods in California, which was great to be a part of. It'd been way too long since I'd last gone camping, and even longer still since I'd been to the CA coast, so it was awesome to be able to do both in one trip. Banana slugs, hikes through Ladybird Johnson's Grove, late-night wanderings through the campground, crazy coastal highway driving, and fun at the beach made for a thoroughly lovely trip. This is my beachy rendition of Mordor from Lord of the Rings, complete with Mount Doom, The Black Gate, and the ever-watchful Eye of Sauron. Ohh how I love being a nerd, hehe.
Yesterday the girls and I volunteered at the Portland International Beerfest, basically working three hours for free beer and a t-shirt, and it was *so* worth it, lol. Knowing next to nothing about beer and having never poured a drop of it either didn't stop me from putting on a pretty good show for the Scottish brewer's tent I was assigned to. It was a distinctly Portlandish experience, and we plan to do it again in a few weeks at the Oregon Brewer's Festival.
And tonight we're going to see Order of the Phoenix, which I've got mixed feelings about but am still totally excited for. My mixed feelings stem from the craptastic performance Michael Gambon has given playing Dumbledore in the last three movies and the collective belief that Imelda Staunton didn't give a terribly fitting go at playing Dolores Umbridge. Granted they're only two characters, but this is Harry Potter man, this is serious stuff, lol.
Serious stuff is what I want less of in life right now; I told myself I wasn't ever going to let Sicko deeply hurt me again as he did when I wrote that last entry and I'm stickin to that! It's summer, every day is gloriously beautiful! Now is the time for smiles and sunshine, for "out with the old, in with the new!", for ditching destructive douchebags and embracing ebullient energy and appreciating awkward alliteration! To go uber-geeky and quote Auron, "This is *my* story". ^_^