My next month in work
So, as mentioned before, I messed up a medical assist drill. Because I have a lot of good work with my company, I was not given a write - up (written form saying I messed up, going into my personel form), nor, obviously, fired.
Thats the good part.
The bad part is as following:
I recieved 3 admonishments for this. One was at the end of day where it happened. Reasonable enough.
The 2nd was yesterday, where my boss said I messed up (privately) and mentioned that I wasn't going to get written up about it.
The 3rd time will be today after the end of my shift (sadly, there was a meeting scheduled for the dozen people who have my job, including me, and our boss, or maybe two bosses, after all I have about 7, why not just toss in another for fun). Since this meeting was already scheduled I am sure a talk about not doing messing that sort of drill up and so the repercussions will come up on the agenda. Sign, what a long week. By the end of this week (this afternoon after this meeting) I will feel horrible.
The real thing is I just hate having the repercussions of mess ups dragged out over a week. I mean, it's Friday, why drag it out 4 days from Tuesday to today. I knew I messed up, knew that I wasn't going to be fired, knew that if it happened again I would be fired, like.....2 hours after it happened. It's like emotional crucification.
Furthermore, I will be worried about messing up my job for months to come. Not as much as I am now, but overall I will feel this whole thing hanging over me for a long time. Even after I relax, the time needed to rebuild the capital with my boss's to the point where I will not be fired for any serious mistake, will be at least oh... 8 months or so. If this was Tetris I would be like 5 blocks from the top and frantically shifting squares to get more space. (whoah, now THATS a odd segue).
I freaking hate the fact that I am hostage to my needs for income. I know we are supposed to be "land of opportunity," etc.. but the constant threat of loss of ones job over ones head is modern man's private little hell. I think thats the thing that makes long term politicians and such so out of touch with their constituents.. they are and have long been past that. I mean, Bush loses his job in three years (THANK GOD), and it's not like him and Barbara are going to be checking their budget to make ends meet. Dubya isn't going to pick up a part time at Starbucks in the evening and be running around marketing hawkish puppet presidency skill sets to prospective employers. Rich people have their own concerns that seem just as big to them, but I don't think anything that happens with them relates or is comparable to the worries of income bondage.
Thats the good part.
The bad part is as following:
I recieved 3 admonishments for this. One was at the end of day where it happened. Reasonable enough.
The 2nd was yesterday, where my boss said I messed up (privately) and mentioned that I wasn't going to get written up about it.
The 3rd time will be today after the end of my shift (sadly, there was a meeting scheduled for the dozen people who have my job, including me, and our boss, or maybe two bosses, after all I have about 7, why not just toss in another for fun). Since this meeting was already scheduled I am sure a talk about not doing messing that sort of drill up and so the repercussions will come up on the agenda. Sign, what a long week. By the end of this week (this afternoon after this meeting) I will feel horrible.
The real thing is I just hate having the repercussions of mess ups dragged out over a week. I mean, it's Friday, why drag it out 4 days from Tuesday to today. I knew I messed up, knew that I wasn't going to be fired, knew that if it happened again I would be fired, like.....2 hours after it happened. It's like emotional crucification.
Furthermore, I will be worried about messing up my job for months to come. Not as much as I am now, but overall I will feel this whole thing hanging over me for a long time. Even after I relax, the time needed to rebuild the capital with my boss's to the point where I will not be fired for any serious mistake, will be at least oh... 8 months or so. If this was Tetris I would be like 5 blocks from the top and frantically shifting squares to get more space. (whoah, now THATS a odd segue).
I freaking hate the fact that I am hostage to my needs for income. I know we are supposed to be "land of opportunity," etc.. but the constant threat of loss of ones job over ones head is modern man's private little hell. I think thats the thing that makes long term politicians and such so out of touch with their constituents.. they are and have long been past that. I mean, Bush loses his job in three years (THANK GOD), and it's not like him and Barbara are going to be checking their budget to make ends meet. Dubya isn't going to pick up a part time at Starbucks in the evening and be running around marketing hawkish puppet presidency skill sets to prospective employers. Rich people have their own concerns that seem just as big to them, but I don't think anything that happens with them relates or is comparable to the worries of income bondage.