a weird post
I've had a lot to think about lately. Nothing really to decide, just to... think about. I see all these people's lives going on around mine, and it's very odd to watch, to say the least. People in highschool, people with nuclear families who share physical traits, with boyfriends, without boyfriends, getting boyfriends, having fun, worrying about grades and gathering with friends, mostly without even thinking about it. It's weird. It's all so... normal. And so surreal because of that. All these things seem to be... buzzing around me. It's odd imagining that some kids are just getting their adult lives started, with little shy romances or whatever. I'd never have room in my own life for that, let alone room in myself. They're all just kids it seems, and their lives are like... light. Low-fat with reduced calories or something. And my entire being feels so oddly parrallel with theirs, and with everyone's. There's nothing wrong with it, there's barely anything wrong with me, it's just that everything feels so weird to me. I have a lot to think about, and really quite a few directions my life could take, though nothing really to do about it. Just wait to see where I drift and/or where I move. I can't explain it really. I'm just... buzzing really. And thumping. I have that octopus next to my bones again. And I mean, what other eleventh grade teenager worries about her educational fulfillment?