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On one hand, I want to vigorously pursue friendships at school, really get to know people. You know, be social, be a teenager. But on the other hand, I feel like I don't need it, I want to be alone, I want it to be just me and books and art and just my thoughts alone, moving forward, learning, creating. I want to dedicate myself to it and I feel it would be food enough. It seems like I can only fulfill one dream or the other, but I'm stuck in some botched up twilight in between where I can acheive neither. It's like I'm waiting for my life to teeter and finally fall in a certain direction.
(either way, we NEED to lazer tag more. that rocked.)
(either way, we NEED to lazer tag more. that rocked.)