haven't been very good at that whole "updating weekly" thing... XP
Oh well.
Update in brief
-- Found out a couple weeks ago that my mom's cancer is back. Very small, basically the same thing as last time. It's not (immediately) life-threatening, and I know she'll be fine, so as long as I keep myself from thinking too far into the future (will it come back? what will all those chemicals do to her body in the long term? how much time do we have left? etc), we'll be ok. After we come back from Europe she'll start chemo. A different kind than before, and it seems to have less side effects (though no one really knows) than the last kind, and she probably won't lose all her hair. Anyway...
-- Had huge bout of depression for a few weeks, it's dissipating now though, so no worries! I think it was mainly the stress and overall oppression of summer school mixed with extreme frustration at my spaciness (and therefore myself), and not really about the whole cancer thing. I know she'll be fine in the present and there's no point in thinking about the future. I was never able to control my space outs, but it's been a lot worse lately. I'm being swallowed up a lot of the time, and I don't know where I go. Could be minute seizures, probably is just a defense mechanism left over from childhood coming to bite me in the ass. I have an appointment with a neurologist after my trip.
-- I'm starting to think about CAS, I did a little bit but unfortunately the summer was wasted and I don't have much time left to do much... Rosie, Nichole, Julia, how much will that set me back? The things I'm planning on doing sound like fun though, so it can't be that bad...
-- Still have a creative block. I can draw some animals occasionally, which is a slight improvement! I still haven't had a steady flow of comics for about two or three months, it's just that nothing comes to me. I think it may be a symptom of the said depression. I'll probably get some ideas on my trip, if not, in school. It still gets to me though.
-- EUROPE EUROPE EUROPE!! I'm so excited to finally get to go! There's a lot I have to do before then though. I want to find a couple colleges in London to check out, I need to get stuff on my ipod, pack, clean my room, help my mom pick out a couple hotels, etc. We're only booking hotels in three places, everything else will be spontaneous, which will be really interesting/exciting, we'll probably stay in the oddest places! Plus we'll do a lot of thrift shopping, and I'm going to drag my mom to TONS of museums.
-- Today in summer school I decided to make up an origami. I must admit, it is amazing. I was just randomly folding, and out came this MASTERPIECE! If you pull on two of its corners, it moves! It is highly amusing. I call it: The Amusement Machine.
So yeah. Totally up to date now.
I hope this lj cut will work... it isn't showing up in the preview for some reason...
Update in brief
-- Found out a couple weeks ago that my mom's cancer is back. Very small, basically the same thing as last time. It's not (immediately) life-threatening, and I know she'll be fine, so as long as I keep myself from thinking too far into the future (will it come back? what will all those chemicals do to her body in the long term? how much time do we have left? etc), we'll be ok. After we come back from Europe she'll start chemo. A different kind than before, and it seems to have less side effects (though no one really knows) than the last kind, and she probably won't lose all her hair. Anyway...
-- Had huge bout of depression for a few weeks, it's dissipating now though, so no worries! I think it was mainly the stress and overall oppression of summer school mixed with extreme frustration at my spaciness (and therefore myself), and not really about the whole cancer thing. I know she'll be fine in the present and there's no point in thinking about the future. I was never able to control my space outs, but it's been a lot worse lately. I'm being swallowed up a lot of the time, and I don't know where I go. Could be minute seizures, probably is just a defense mechanism left over from childhood coming to bite me in the ass. I have an appointment with a neurologist after my trip.
-- I'm starting to think about CAS, I did a little bit but unfortunately the summer was wasted and I don't have much time left to do much... Rosie, Nichole, Julia, how much will that set me back? The things I'm planning on doing sound like fun though, so it can't be that bad...
-- Still have a creative block. I can draw some animals occasionally, which is a slight improvement! I still haven't had a steady flow of comics for about two or three months, it's just that nothing comes to me. I think it may be a symptom of the said depression. I'll probably get some ideas on my trip, if not, in school. It still gets to me though.
-- EUROPE EUROPE EUROPE!! I'm so excited to finally get to go! There's a lot I have to do before then though. I want to find a couple colleges in London to check out, I need to get stuff on my ipod, pack, clean my room, help my mom pick out a couple hotels, etc. We're only booking hotels in three places, everything else will be spontaneous, which will be really interesting/exciting, we'll probably stay in the oddest places! Plus we'll do a lot of thrift shopping, and I'm going to drag my mom to TONS of museums.
-- Today in summer school I decided to make up an origami. I must admit, it is amazing. I was just randomly folding, and out came this MASTERPIECE! If you pull on two of its corners, it moves! It is highly amusing. I call it: The Amusement Machine.
So yeah. Totally up to date now.
I hope this lj cut will work... it isn't showing up in the preview for some reason...