a dozen roses in the car...and i don't know where you are
my sister comes back tomorrow! i'm very excited. i miss her so. in exactly 10 and a half hours she'll be here. yay!
rachel guthrie is gone! no! for a week and a half! gaaaahhh...
i'm glad eddie is home. i don't know if he knows this, but i look up to him a lot. he's quite the inspirational fellow.
you know i love all of you. i really truely do. and i would do anything for any of you guys.....
i'm not saying this for sympathy. or for pity. i'm just laying everything out there. i feel boring. i'm not a dynamic person. i never will be. and that's okey. but i've gotten to the point where i just really honestly feel like the "mom". like that person that supports people she loves, but never gets appreciation for it. i know it sounds super selfish, but i guess i just miss the attention i used to get from people. it just vanished one day and now.....i just don't feel like i have anyone to talk to about anything. or anyone who i think would come to me to talk to me about stuff. i'm so completly out of everyone's lives and i don't want to be. it's like i was placed there by some unknown force. or maybe it was me. i don't know. so there it is. you can do what you want with this information, but it's out there....so yeah.