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Okay so I've come to fucking hate living with my dad in this fucking hellhole. I pretty much can't stand anything about this place. Nancy is nice sometimes, but that's about it. I'm so sick of my dad being a jackass and only giving a fuck about what he wants and needs. He don't give a shit about myself, my wants, or needs. He could care less. Which actually I could careless about, only the fact that he's keeping me hostage pretty much. Before when we lived with Pam he said that I had to move out when I graduated.. now it's I can't move out until I'm 18. Why the fuck does it matter? First of all if I graduated at the regular time in May, it would be two freaking months before I was 18 so why can't I just move out before then? And second of all, if I do graduate early like I plan to, why can't I move out then? I don't have a place set up yet, but Teresa said that I could move in with them if I had to. I don't necessarly have to, but it wouldn't be for that long until me and Kenny would move out together if that is still going to happen. I wouldn't be freeloading either, so I mean I'd rather get out of here as soon as possible.. what is my dad losing? Nothing. Oh wait someone to pay for the gas in the truck, I forgot. Whatever. I'm so sick of him. When I move I'm not telling him where I'm moving to. He don't give a shit so I'm not even going to bother telling him. I wish things would just go away and come faster, you know? God I need my life to move faster... Kenny if you're reading this, thank you for being there for me today I know it was probably hard with me crying and stuff, but thanks for being strong and being there for me. You're all that I have. No one that says they cared has stayed around even if they've said "no matter what." You're different and I believe you. I love you with all of my heart and soul. <3