Scared of this stupid pattern
Why does this happen to me? Crappy intensity's got me running again. It's not that I don't want to be with him....that's not it at all. I'm head over heels for this boy. My boy! However, the intensity is starting to get a little scary. Maybe it's because I'm so young; I'll be 20 in January. I keep hearing stories of people that have been together FOREVER and have lost the luster of it. I don't want to go back to casual dating, and I'm too much of a jealous fiend to do the open relationship thing. Why do I always feel like I'm gonna miss something whenever I feel sparks with anyone, guy or girl? Maybe I just can't make up my mind, and never will; maybe I'm destined to be by myself, the crazy lady with a million cats who mutters to herself on the way to the store to get her "children" food. But I hate the thought of being alone. I CAN'T WIN IN THIS CRAZY WORLD.
I know he's gonna read this somehow. I hope he doesn't take it the wrong way. Don't read into it, take it exactly as you see it. I'm not playing games or hiding messages behind carefully chosen words. This is exactly how I feel. I <3 you, don't forget that.
I know he's gonna read this somehow. I hope he doesn't take it the wrong way. Don't read into it, take it exactly as you see it. I'm not playing games or hiding messages behind carefully chosen words. This is exactly how I feel. I <3 you, don't forget that.