Parts of it were really aggravating --like waiting at the doctors office for nearly two hours while my Mom was being seen for an infected toe. Two hours! But out of that aggravation (and a lot of manic journaling) came some insight.
I've opened up all this time for myself but I'm still acting as if I don't have any time and so still not accomplishing what I set out to do.
And then true to form, the Universe slips something in my InBox that I really needed to remember. So a mixed day, in the end. But I'll take all the hugs I can get! =oD
*HUGS* My favourite quotation, though I have no idea who said it, is "We are injured and hurt emotionally, not by the words or actions of others, but by our own response".
I spend a lot of time reminding myself that, while I cannot do anything about other people, or the world, it is up to me to take responibility for how I REACT to everything.
My disability often feels like a prison not of my making... but my therapists and doctors often remind me to look at Professor Stephen HAwking, who has not let a physial condition 100 times worse than mine stop him. :D Don't I feel guilty and weak?
The trouble is, we waste energy on feeling irritated with ourselves, or being guilty, or beating ourselves up, that we OUGHT to be spending on improving our mental state. Those negative feelings we turn on ourselves (like your current irritation) are a part of what is stopping us breaking through, aren't they?
...but my therapists and doctors often remind me to look at Professor Stephen Hawking, who has not let a physical condition 100 times worse than mine stop him. :D Don't I feel guilty and weak?
Well, yeah, that's probably the normal first wave of emotion to hit. But then you could decide to feel inspired and empowered by what he has accomplished in the face of adversity.
Anger can be empowering if we act on it instead of acting it out. That's what I'm trying to do with that "Ah ha!" moment which I might not have ever been gifted with, had I not been sitting in the doctor's office fuming for two hours. Heh heh..... ((hugs)) Thank you!
Love Winston Churchill. "We shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; *off mic* (we shall throw beer bottles at them for that is about all we have left!) *back into microphone* We shall never surrender..."
I don't know if that is true, what was muttered as an aside, but it makes a great story.
Gosh, Cyn. Thank you. Indeed, "keep on going." Sometimes it's all we can do to keep putting one foot in front of the other and sometimes that's plenty good enough.
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I've opened up all this time for myself but I'm still acting as if I don't have any time and so still not accomplishing what I set out to do.
And then true to form, the Universe slips something in my InBox that I really needed to remember. So a mixed day, in the end.
But I'll take all the hugs I can get! =oD
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I spend a lot of time reminding myself that, while I cannot do anything about other people, or the world, it is up to me to take responibility for how I REACT to everything.
My disability often feels like a prison not of my making... but my therapists and doctors often remind me to look at Professor Stephen HAwking, who has not let a physial condition 100 times worse than mine stop him. :D Don't I feel guilty and weak?
The trouble is, we waste energy on feeling irritated with ourselves, or being guilty, or beating ourselves up, that we OUGHT to be spending on improving our mental state. Those negative feelings we turn on ourselves (like your current irritation) are a part of what is stopping us breaking through, aren't they?
Love you and am praying for you.
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Well, yeah, that's probably the normal first wave of emotion to hit. But then you could decide to feel inspired and empowered by what he has accomplished in the face of adversity.
Anger can be empowering if we act on it instead of acting it out. That's what I'm trying to do with that "Ah ha!" moment which I might not have ever been gifted with, had I not been sitting in the doctor's office fuming for two hours.
Heh heh.....
((hugs))
Thank you!
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"If you're going through Hell, keep going..."-- Winston Churchill.
You are the strongest person I've ever met online.
You are many things I wish I were, and you have a new puppy coming to you in a few weeks.
And yes, this is like way after the fact-- so sue me.
On the upside.. SDCC is only FOUR months away!!! :D:D:D:D!!!!
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"We shall fight on the beaches,
we shall fight on the landing grounds,
we shall fight in the fields and in the streets,
we shall fight in the hills;
*off mic*
(we shall throw beer bottles at them for that is about all we have left!)
*back into microphone*
We shall never surrender..."
I don't know if that is true, what was muttered as an aside, but it makes a great story.
Gosh, Cyn. Thank you.
Indeed, "keep on going." Sometimes it's all we can do to keep putting one foot in front of the other and sometimes that's plenty good enough.
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