Pork and Beans
So its June 3rd. One day after one of my friends birthday who is going to get married next year. 12 days until I officially cannot be readmitted until January. 45 days until im done step foot into reality with a "certificate of completion". 72 days until my best friend turns 22 and celebrates the fact that he is only 3 hours older than me.
That's my year so far. What's in between? Nothing. Sure ive got stuff going on - shows at school, internships, hanging out, and all that good blah blah. What am i? Who am i? I know some answers to that question but does one really ever find out the complete answer? I know enough about who i am to know what i want. Sure, im domestic. Ive come to learn that it's not as bad as i thought. I'm kind of excited that Im growing up. Ive got applications in at MTV-Detroit, Hbujube Productions, ProductionHub.com, intern forms at specs, sparkling frog media, etc... What's changed? im still at home, im still in debt, and i still suck at being social. but - i am gaining confidence. ive lost 5lbs.
what are my goals? maybe ill stay in state - maybe i wont. i probably will but ive come to terms with the fact that thats not so bad either. i would like to get a job doing 3 stage production (pre, production, and post) with a media company. News if i really need a job, but at this time ill take what i can get. news isnt so bad...so long as i dont have to write it because i have a lack of skill in that area. I know where im going though, and i have contacts. Its nice.
Id like to move out. Get a place of my own (or shared). Ive been saying it for years that i need to go, but it really is my time now. I wasnt prepared earlier. Maybe ill get back into eastern. If i do - awesome. If i dont - thats ok at least i tried, and hopefully i can have a chance to try again in the future. Freelance would be nice too. Hopefully i can get my hands on a camera.
Id like to get married one day. Have a family. It's a future goal of mine cause i think i would be a good father and husband.
Id like to start a company one day. 3 stage production. if not 3 stage then just production and postproduction or maybe even just post - i like editing. im good at it.
i hope im on the right path. i just wish i had more support...i mean - i know i do. lots of people just dont show it. i get a lot of "so hows school?" "oh man its blahblahblah" "ok, so how about them tigers?" ya know? some people care - others just attempt to seem like they care. i dont need them.
things are getting better at bestbuy. i got moved to mp3 now so i have that and gaming. make some pretty good sales - i have an evaluation coming up this summer so a raise would be nice.
ive made friends at school, i just hope i can keep them after we leave. im kinda close to a few of them. we make a good team...the teachers are VERY impressed with our work....according to brad we are one of the most creative classes to come through in a while. its nice to know that we can do something impressive. especially with my whole "i have to make it look better than the example".
ok, im done ranting. i want to rant more but i feel that i take too much time from the few people who read this heh.
have a good night
im gonna go watch a movie
That's my year so far. What's in between? Nothing. Sure ive got stuff going on - shows at school, internships, hanging out, and all that good blah blah. What am i? Who am i? I know some answers to that question but does one really ever find out the complete answer? I know enough about who i am to know what i want. Sure, im domestic. Ive come to learn that it's not as bad as i thought. I'm kind of excited that Im growing up. Ive got applications in at MTV-Detroit, Hbujube Productions, ProductionHub.com, intern forms at specs, sparkling frog media, etc... What's changed? im still at home, im still in debt, and i still suck at being social. but - i am gaining confidence. ive lost 5lbs.
what are my goals? maybe ill stay in state - maybe i wont. i probably will but ive come to terms with the fact that thats not so bad either. i would like to get a job doing 3 stage production (pre, production, and post) with a media company. News if i really need a job, but at this time ill take what i can get. news isnt so bad...so long as i dont have to write it because i have a lack of skill in that area. I know where im going though, and i have contacts. Its nice.
Id like to move out. Get a place of my own (or shared). Ive been saying it for years that i need to go, but it really is my time now. I wasnt prepared earlier. Maybe ill get back into eastern. If i do - awesome. If i dont - thats ok at least i tried, and hopefully i can have a chance to try again in the future. Freelance would be nice too. Hopefully i can get my hands on a camera.
Id like to get married one day. Have a family. It's a future goal of mine cause i think i would be a good father and husband.
Id like to start a company one day. 3 stage production. if not 3 stage then just production and postproduction or maybe even just post - i like editing. im good at it.
i hope im on the right path. i just wish i had more support...i mean - i know i do. lots of people just dont show it. i get a lot of "so hows school?" "oh man its blahblahblah" "ok, so how about them tigers?" ya know? some people care - others just attempt to seem like they care. i dont need them.
things are getting better at bestbuy. i got moved to mp3 now so i have that and gaming. make some pretty good sales - i have an evaluation coming up this summer so a raise would be nice.
ive made friends at school, i just hope i can keep them after we leave. im kinda close to a few of them. we make a good team...the teachers are VERY impressed with our work....according to brad we are one of the most creative classes to come through in a while. its nice to know that we can do something impressive. especially with my whole "i have to make it look better than the example".
ok, im done ranting. i want to rant more but i feel that i take too much time from the few people who read this heh.
have a good night
im gonna go watch a movie